In coma.

My PowerBook LCD finally went into coma..Was told in MUGS forum that the backlight of my LCD is dead. I can still see faint image of the login window. So i would not really say its dead..just in coma.

Stupid Life! Horoscope told me i have a lot to show off this week for my wonderful week...What shit wonderful week has it been so far man?

I am called up for BMT recourse in July, and now my TiBook is in coma with 3 ongoing freelance jobs. Wat great timing!!!

And i'll have to burn a hole in my bank account to see the Specialist tomorrow and repair my laptop. Oh BTW, I've decided to go for the July recourse. Bia the 3 months and pass out to clear leave in one shot. The other choice was, to downgrade now and clear some leave (about 10 days), and go for modified BMT in Oct, finish in Nov and clear the rest of the leave. I think the latter is quite a screwed up choice.

Firstly, Dot, Joanna, Jane + me have arranged to go Bangkok at the end of Oct..And there's no better timing than that 29th Oct - 1st Nov!! Coz Joanna's school reopens in November. That's the problem..

So guys, I'll probably miss In Song once again. But i'll go for practices still...in hope to get to book in late on 28th August after the concert! If only it were a Sat. But if i were to be in field camp or wat then too bad la..hai...Basses will still sound as good i'm sure! Maybe even better! hah..

How i wish i were in coma and wake up on my ORD day....

Tekong!

Yesterday, Tham told me a piece of news i'd never want to hear! Both Andy and I are scheduled for BMT recourse in mid-July!!! That came too soon for me coz i haven't been able to build up my medical history on my back pain..I really have back pain!!

Called up Xane's 'back specialist', watever the specific name is called,,and arranged an appointment on thu.
Den i kept thinking..why am i avoiding the recourse? Choralee concert is in August!!! But then i tot..why not make use of the chance to get fit before i ORD? should i? i dunno!!! Afterall..i think Chorale has more than enough guys for the concert..so missing the concert won't pose much of a harm to chorale actually...So why not just go for it, pass out in sept and start clearing leave?!

So should i go for the appointment with the specialist?

I've asked..If i get downgraded (again) to Pes C, i can skip the July recourse, but they'll schedule me for modified BMT in Oct no matter wat..Then i won't be able to clear leave!! Unless...i try to siam the modified BMT too...arghh...

So..actually i feel likej going ahead with the July recourse, and risk missing In Song @ Esplanade e again....with my programme book design representing me at Esplanade...HAI!!!!!! i'm really at a lost...


Anyway..its been a long while since i blogged ya? Its because it was my long weekend in 3 bloody weeks!!! Fri, went Changi Village and Changi Beach...and saturday went to pig out after chorale. Man , i hadn't pigged like i did for a long time!!! And i had a nightmatre after that...dreamt that the audition went awfully wrong and witnessing a tsunami caused by a secret government experiment gone wrong!!! Ok, i suppose the audtion part was well, coz of the audition and the tsunami was coz of Changi beach!!..Government part i guess is the Integral Resort thingy..hahaha......

I'll go dream about tekong now...

Phew.

Nice day nice day..Although i had to orientate my new colleague in driving tthe mini-bus..i got to leave at 11aam still..haha..

Rushed home and had to buy lunch for my bro again (there goes my $3, i'm getting very stingy)..and ate the noodles while editing the stupidest looking cards i've ever seen.

The rush job Eddie had gotten me to do was to edit thelogos of the 'creative' cards. There was this card with an illustration showing a man on a coconut tree looking out, with the words 'i was seaching and seaching..' written on the beach sand. So i was to add in the 'Rs' for the words..and edit various other grammar mistakes.

After rushing to Kovan and pass him the CD and quoted him an $80 fee for the editing, i had wanted to take bus to bedok reservoir road area...i thought can mah...remember driving along there during driver's course..but i walked and walked...quite damn long la...finally found a bus stop with buses that goes to Tampines..phew..

The trip to Tampines was pretty fun actually. Didn't realise Tampines Road was so long and deserted..Quite an experience..Got to Xane's place and i used the gym for almost an hour before going to suntan a bit in the nice, warm evening sun at 4.45pm! Then also used the sauna..wah...damn shiok!

Oh and yesterday i received my 'order' of the Nobody Knows soundtracks and dvds! But err..i'm in debt to Gilbert now..SGD$140! Didn't really expect it to amount to such a considerable sum..hai..my PowerPac fan haven't buy ah!!! Back to Nobody Knows, the soundtrack is sooo bloody relaxing siah..simple and beautiful...phew..And i went thru the Making of nobody Knows..Akira is just so cute and dashing!

Came home at 9plus..and was 'looking for' the Ge Qian notes on the piano..and found them...and that stupid note that i can't reach is a high 'c'! arghh....started practicing the running notes..and not long after my aunt came...i thought she was bringing Maggie home...only to realise she is to stay over at my place for 10 days...coz her place under renovation...ay...can't practice liao..

Ok..i'm very busy these few days....got Tempest music and the TA booklets to design..argh...give me more time!

Andy, my fellow driver told me he needs to change some of our duties...asked him why then he sheepishly told me he is participating the the Channel U SuperStar singing competition...ay...so envious....of his courage that is...He is one guy who i wish to be..in the sense he can really be very bochup about things. He banged the mini-bus also like nothing happened like that...still can laugh...bloody hell...For me..that time i knocked over the metal pole i behaved as if the world is ending. Ay...i shall just concentrate on my Hark! affair....

Oh, i shall be political and comment on the IR..wat Integral Resort huh....haha...i think its damn bloody cool!!! Imagine having the big big Marina reservoir and huge huge resorts!! Two somemore...Singapore will really be spruced (is there such a word?) up!! I'm all excited about it...as long as i know i must not be addicted to gambling i think its fine with me! i guess a smart person would just go for the benefits of the IR and keep himself save from the negative effects..hee....maybe i'm not smart..maybe i am...no i guess i'm not..haha...But then again, by the time the 2 IRs are up i also dunno how old already...haha...

Off Day!

After the dramatic night yesterday, today's off day seemed especially refreshing.

We broke up barely 2mins and patched back. Ha!

Ok anyway, went K-lunch with Dot today and it only cost $6+ per pax..power.
Den We drowsily went to PS..we were really tired...dunno why..

Den met Joanna Peng aka Xiaoli who just finished her exams..And we were talking about Sunday Times' article about Gen Y having weird, special names. There was this Otard guy...who was named after his father's favourite XO so Dot was like 'Wah lau..so sad..imagine being named after your dad's favourite drink' And we realised Joanna was damn fortunate not to have such an insane father for she could have been name Teh, Teh Peng..

Den we went 'shee shell shee shell on shee shore' at Prinsep again. And we agreed to visit Batam on 2 May 2005! Eddie smsed me and said want to meet and pass me some rush photoshop jobs. So ok..haha..money's rolling in again. But i haven't even started conceptualising Zhihong's Tempest Music! wah busy week..and now i'm actually clearing my hardisk so i can have space to work on the files in camp tmr..haha...my poor overloaded PBook G4 667!

Den on the way back home from Kovan, popped into 7-eleven to buy Banana Walnut Bread which might very well become my 3 meals of the day tmr and flipped thru 8 days..haha...i've stopped buying 8 days...i'm getting more and more stingy! And on my way back, saw this beautiful cat lying on the pavement and i tried to stir it by imitating a cat's meows but no response. Then i realised it a bit strange for it to sleep right beside the busy Serangoon Road. Looked closer and it had a pool of blood under it mouth..hai..must have been run over by vehicles. I regret not having the courage to carry it and place it under the nearby bushes. I prayed for it and left. Wat a way to end my outing.

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I dun understand.

Do i really sound bad? Why is Xane not supportive of me going for it? All of a sudden it became a lame thing. I'm just imitating the singers whose songs i sing. I have no originality. What the f**k? So why was he like so happy for Dot who has passed it? So he was just putting on an act? What did he mean by i sing with more passion when singing in chorale? its all singing. music has no boundaries. I know he doesn't appreciate or even dun like Chinese music but the has no right to say that its lame what.

I understand there are non-pop songs and why ppl say those songs by Coldplay, Maroon5 , etc are good compositions and i agree they are great songs too. But that doesn't mean pop songs are crap either! Jay Chou's songs are definitely great, and there are songs written with feelings and passion too. Singers who don't write their own songs doesn't mean they are bad singers. Songs not written by the singers doesn't mean they are bad songs. There are just ppl who can write music but can't sing, and can sing but can't write. There are pop songs with really sensitive,expressive and abstract lyrics. that i really appreciate. He said i should write my own songs, pls, i would have done so i had known how to. he said i should go for singing classses, pls, if i had $$, i would have taken up the classes long time when Dot started hers.

It was just so bloody insulting to comment that what i'm going to do or that my dream and passion is lame. You can dun support me, but u have no rite to insult wat i do. I dunno how to appreciate DJing, the mixing and scratching but i've never pass it off as lame and stupid. I even told him where he can sign up for courses on it. How can he actually say such a discouraging thing to me? It wasn't an advice, it was an opinion, a very negative and bluntly presented one, to the extend of rudeness.

I won't give up. With his words, all the more i want to go and try. I may not succeed, but i'll try.

So hurt, so insulted, so degraded.

Practice

Trapped again today, in camp i mean. And the control is so bloodily becoming a public entertainment room where the RPs come in and watch TV. I just refuse to stay there. It feels so...soo..err..intruded? k my english is bad. Borrowed Goh's Zen micro to listen to my beloved Jay Chou's ge qian. Oh my earphones are spoilt and into the rubbish chute they went and i'm too broke to buy new ones.

So, actually i'm up in the office practicing Ge Qian to myself. Singing the song in lalala's makes me realise wat are the notes i really can't hit and wat i actually can hit.

Anyway, was smsing chat with Gilbert and the topic went to me eye rings again..hhmm why huh..dunno..and told him i bought Garnier Eye Contour Firming Cream and Garnier Eye Contour Lightening Cream out of desperation after being commented to look older than a 26yo. Come to think of it i haven't applied it yet..Dun even dare to take them out in front of those oh-so-chauvinist RPs.

Ordered 3 boxes of Chun Chun Hoarse Voice Tea from Sandy..hope they'll help me prepare for it..

Today, after the rain in the afternoon, smart aleck me went to open the windows of 45630 such that the heat won't be trapped in it and roast me when i drive. In the secluded control, i din even hear the rain that came back. By the time i ran out to close the windows the seats were already wet! And worse thing was that when NRC Susan boarded 45630 i forgot to tell her the seats were wet and she didn't realise it either until we reached MMI and my God..Not only were her pretty pink Bossini 3/4 jeans wet, they were stained by the dirty 10-year-old seat of 45630! 2 or 3 streaks of yellowish brown stains that resembled 'shit stains', as wat Dot and me always referred to, were right across her butts! I felt so guilty!!! And to my surprise, Susan did not turn to a black face and get angry! just a bit of whining that's all. She has really good temper i must say. I treated her to kopi and kaya toast la...hope her appointment tonight wasn't spoilt by the 'shit-stains'. tsk tsk..

Oh shit..9pm show finale today..i go watch now!

Sing!

Yeah! Finally got to go sing KTV with Dot who just quit her job. Hmm..screamed thru the Jay Chou..but i find them most enjoyable. Jay is really such a genius..hai.. Dot got thru her auditions and sometime soon we'll be able to listen to her sing at the cafe! Hehe...but i still dunno wat songs to choose siah..actually..not much confidence left to go for it already..so many notes can't hit..sing shit siah..haha...watever..hai..

Sadly Dot's friend tot i'm over 24 years old. Dylan and Gilbert just said i look older than Gilbert who is like 26 yo siah. My God..hai...

Lalalala...

Time

Hmm..I think i'm kinda losing track of time on my blog.

Been busy for the past few days that i had no time to come and type.

Let's see wat has happened.

Hmm..wait. when was the last time i blogged. Oh April 5th. Talking about 5th, i just saw this form lying around in my office with the title, "Application for LOA Test and the 2th Attempt". Bwahahaha. Couldn't stop laughing. Also, all these while my MT-line's vehicle/transport indent form was titled, "Requestion for Vehicle/Transport.." Haha..
Most of the staff in my organisation has bad command of English. Not that mine is great la..but 2th...hahahah...

Anyway, just realised why Xane's English is weak, coz his friends all can't be bothered about using good english. Went to his school to meet up yesterday (April 12)and saw a note from his classmate on his desk, "Hey, I've left the barket under your desk. Thanks!'

Back to the happenings..Last week, my mum whispered to me at home that my eldest sis might be pregnant! And told me to be discreet about it until the foetus has stabilised. I thought, "err..so she IS pregnant right?" hahaha...yeah..and as if my dad who was around didn't know about it such that my mum had to whisper. heh.. Yippee..i'll be an uncle soon..hehe...yeah yeah...must learn to age graciously. Oh i just bought Garnier 'Lift' cleansing foam and Night Lifting Cream. hah..Hope Mervyn's not reading this.

Then Shirley, my sis-in-law just got promoted. Kuang and her came by for dinner and i'm really glad that they are coming back more often. I know Mummy misses them and Hui and Anthony of course..Hope they keep this up!

And so, on 10nd (tsk tsk) April, Shirley gave us a treat at Parkway Swenson's. My parents, Yan and I rushed there so that they won't release the reserved seats only to find the assistant manager to be Lizhen! hah..so i got her to hold our reservations for us so my mum can go shop a bit before Kuang and Shirley came. The apple crumble was simply delicious! Hot crumble with the butter scotch syrup..woo..so nice that i brought Xane to eat just 2 days later!

12 April was 'the' day and met Xane for dinner..after moving several metal cabinets and their contents over to store the whole afternoon..I was really quite shagged. But the night went well la..quite relaxed. No quarrels..haha..

Oh I bought Li Sheng Jie's album to practice for the auditions..hee...hope its worth the investment and my long weekend..arghh...Dot has asked me to register for her sch's public audition for vocalist...decided to give it a shot...must practice hard! So i've been trying to practice and clear my throat. hee..

Oh today duty met this DP who name is Elisha..wow..cheem name..from the first look i knew he is different..after much probing he finally told me he had just returned from his studies in Canada. That 'ang moh' look and his accent finally gave him away. Hai...wat a lucky guy..right after O levels went to Canada already...rich rich...quite a goodlooking chap btw.

One major thing for the past week was that i outed myself accidentally..hai..so silly...but just as well.

Gilbert is quite nice la. at least not bitchy. And he is helping me to get Japanese version of Nobody Knows DVD and soundtrack! Also getting this 'making of Nobody Knows' documenting the filming right from the auditions of 'Akira' and its all about him!! hee..
Asked him to help me get these 3 first. Then next month he'll get the Spirited Away DVD too. Told him to divide the 2 sets coz no money!! Also requested that he help me keep a lookout of Gomi when he goes Japan himself. And just got to know from him that Gomi means 'rubbish'. Great. Xane has been calling me that!

Took quite a lot of photos too..shall upload them when my broadband gets re-connected. -_-"
Broadband got suspended coz of some disputes between Yan's credit card and Starhub regarding the bills. Hai.

Hope I'll be back soon. Oh my 9pm drama serial.

A Rainy Day..

Hehe..a Rainy morning. Came back and went online to do some research on the CD duplication services..and finish up the CD cleeve design for a quote.

That's about all..Cleaned up my PBook a bit..coz it going really slow with only 9GB left..arghh..Oh and that's why i found so many old photos...hehe..and realised Sam has been very middle-finger prone since pre-Olympic days!!

Hmm..and the whole of yesterday in camp was spent sleeping and working on the CD sleeve and experimenting with website development..oh ya..gotta go re install dreamweaver..

Oh and God bless the the late Pope's soul!

Oh ya!! And congratulations to the VICTORIA SCHOOL CHOIR for getting a Gold with Honours at the Singapore Youth Festival Choral Competitions today!! Wow..they sang Salve Regina and Pok Pok Alimpako!! sat sat eh!! GIMME A 'V'! 'I' 'C'...

Various Old Photos... =]

me
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

vulgar sam
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SWJ
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dawn yann
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

jane
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Me in No. 4 in my container office!
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Me at MRT
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

My MT-Line!!
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Sunset at Esplanade
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

My 93 yo Ah Gong!
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Me in my car which we call 31!
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.