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While /<< keeps talking about how ppl find him looking younger than his actual age, i get sad thinking and actually knowing how old i have been looking. All those stress, late nights and work (school, design, prudential, blogstores).. How can i ever have stayed looking young? I used to be such a baby face.. after all these years of slogging thru late nights studying as i have to work in the day or something, how possible is it to even just look my age?

VS seniors who have seen me recently sad i aged a lot. That really saddens me.

With all the awkwardness and even coldness going on at home, and an empty bank a/c, i really have been thinking about what the hell exactly have i been working so damn hard for.

Family, Friends, Fame, Fortune, Boyfriend.. Wat?

So, I really want to make money.. save up, and get an apartment on my own. I set to celebrate my 30th birthday in my very own apartment. 5 years (with this year inclusive). Dun get me wrong. I still love my family. Its just, they haven't came to accept me yet. I duno if it really is so selfish and too much of me to expect them to accept me, but, if they do love me, they should. But then again, it is also that they love me hence their reactions. I duno. Life's a mess now. Rachel, Ron and Alicia subsidised me for a DVD player, and the Prudents (current and ex) got me a bluetoth mouse that i pretty much love. The thing about the DVD player is, the situation at home is so not optimal that i even feel guilty about upping the entertainment, leisure, enjoyment factor in my very own room. Cuz apparently it seems to Yan that my life isn't miserable enough to be described as that by me.

The only sweet thang was that /<< gave me a pretty nice surprise for my 26th bday and for our 1st anniversary. Not bad really, my 2nd longest r/s thus far..

Looking at Jimmy and Yann's cosy nice 'East End' could bring me to tears..of envy and more envy.....

Swamped with commitments and responsibilities in the many areas (sch, design, and more design, prudential, the hattys, luminurz, family, /<<, forex).. I was falling apart. But now, the goal: 30 @ my very own...

Pulling everything back together.. move on, head on.

GOD

Actually, wat i have been troubled and even disgusted about is the above-mentioned.

He is my Father too. So, whatever i said about my parents and siblings apply to Him as well.

No offence to anyone or any religion.

NOT marrying women

Yan said i should keep to my promise if i did promise not to bring him back anymore. but, have i ever, EVER promised i'll be straight, i'll get married to a woman? What sort of mindset did my parents have when they brought me up? What made most parents bring up their children with the expectation that they would become great scientists, lawyers, millionaires, and that they will be married to the opposite sex regardless of whether those 'mainstream' marriages would be happy ones or not?

Should i have made it clear to them that i'm not going to be what they expect of me by flunking my exams and turning stray, getting into bad company, not caring about my ties with the family? Would that be easier for them to accept that i'm GAY? Since i'd have been a hell of a son and brother anyway.

I've been trying to please most ppl, at least to those that i myself care for. But no one in my family is treating me and loving me for me at all. They want me to be their loving, sensitive, fillial, successful, good, doting son, brother, uncle BUT they freak out and threatened to turn their backs on me when they realised, i'm all the above EXCEPT that i'm GAY.

Kill me already. Kill me.

Family - What?

would it be better that i haven't been so nice and close to them at all from the start?
 
 
be an unfillial son so that they won't be disappointed when they find out i'm gay?

mum wants to abort me.

2nd sis is rejecting my life.

i've been a nice son and brother (at least to my eldest sis and elder brother)

does being gay change who i am?

but this is exactly who i am, the real me.

they have expectations of me, and feel i'm indebted to them for me life.

so should i die for them?

Praise the Lord for Alston!

Praise the Lord for a healthy baby boy Alston!

My sister Yvette just gave birth to her second child, Alston, on 16 Feb 2009 around 11.20pm!

YaY~!

Hurray to clearing all modules. Thank God.

Still on track to graduate in Sept 2009. wahaha.. 2 sems to go!

Investment module - CLEARED!

HEHEHEHE... i managed to miraculously clear my Investment module with a Credit (64 marks). Ron got a Distinction with 70 marks and Kston got a Distinction with 74 marks. Then Rachel (so funny) who was at work, asked me to log into her account to check for her. she passed with 54 marks. Thank God!!! And she was so erm emo, she cried! hehehhe Watever. Rachel, we did it!

Alicia scored a Distinction for her Biz Finance..cool. i managed only a Pass last sem. Heck.

The Venetian

Yan n I left Venetian at about 9.30am for 珠海 and took us an hour to cross over after cheating our way thru the senior citizens and disabled lane at the Macau customs.

I went back to buy one more set of violin strings and shoulder rest, another 2 pairs of shoes n 2 jackets. I couldn't find any nice shoes for dearie. :( he likes white shoes. The stuff were not cut throat cheap but were at comfortable prices that prob won't be available in Singapore unless at at least 50% sale.

It was a mad rush back to The Venetian as we wanted to have half a day at The Venetian itself.

Back at Venetian, we met the aunties for lunch at a food court then we explored the shoppng area. The architecture was truly stunning and the way they incorporated the 'river canals' into this mamothmous thing was just amazing. Shopping here was undoubtedly expensive. I bought some biotherm items at the dfs only.

Lost SGD100 at my first visit to the casino before I headed back to the room to pack, plan and worry about my luggage weight.

I went to sleep worrying bout not having bought anything for dearie tho.



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HK Day

It was hong kong day and we were going to take the Cotai Jet over. At the ferry terminal, irene was stunned to see customs counters after passing the boarding area. She had adviced the aumties that no passports were required to cross over. They had to go back to get theirs. Thankfully my family always had our passports in us, so we crossed over first.

The hongkong ferry terminal was at 上环 n we were starving. Maxim's dim sum was our target but couldn't find it anywhere. Wat was availble was only Maxim's fast food. Dad was freaking hungry and didn't agree that we continued searching. Yan enquired at maxim's fast food and luckily there was a branch just nearby.

On the 3rd floor if vicwood plaza was this 潮源 restaurant which is a subsidiary under Maxims. It served mainly teochew cusine and there was no dim sum push carts around sadly. There were a few unique teochew dim sum items tho and they tasted really good. Coupled with some other dim sum items and porridge (soupy teochew style too, I love), the lunch was satisfying but not cheap (HKD517 for 5 pax).

Next was taking the MTR to Wong Tai Sin temple. At the station, old aunties hawked and hard-sold the offering items like joss-sticks. Luckily mum didn't budge as these were actually not allowed to be brought into the temple.

We prayed, looked around and took some must-have photos and headed in search of cheap shopping.

We reached 深水颇 to go 长沙湾道 where there are ladies' fashion at wholesale prices. The guys split from the girls as usual n we chanced upon this are that was like Singapore's Sungei Road flea market. It was actually the 匣聊街 where electronic goods, new n second hand ones were traded. I didn't harbour hopes of getting anything here but it was interesting to experience the local bustle. Dad was thrilled to see the hardware stores and Andrew looked at car accessories. I managed to buy two iPhone covers for only SGD7 each. Both are of decent quality.

I found the MR magazine too, after seeing its advertising billboards at the MTR stations, featuring the SDB Thai actor/model Mario Maurer.

A failed mission to find the adidas outlet at Lai Chi Kok station, we then headed to Mongkok, where the ladies street n sports goods street are.

The famous desserts shop 许留山was right in front of us at exit e2 and we took a much needed break. Yan, mum n dad took to the Ladies Street while Andre and I hunted for sports stuff at Fa Yuen Street. I bought a pair of adidas originals for SGD 55 and Andre got a Nike basketball jacket for about HKD450. Then we met up with the rest cuz they called to complain ladies street was shite.

Then we took the MTR to Central Station n had to walk up a hill to the Peak Tram. There was quite a crowd queueing for the tram and each tram took like 5 min to arrive. Along the way up were the upmarket residences. At the top, we headed up to the err top n the view was indeed enchanting. We settled for a Burger King dinner and toured the peak area a bit more.

Then it was back to Macau.

It was a pretty disappointing day as there was almost zero shopping and Yan and I planned to returntn to 珠海 for more shopping.



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珠海 (Zhu Hai) shopping!

Today we left Casa Real Hotel taking a free shuttle service to the ferry terminal from which we took another free shuttle service to The Venetian.

We arrived at the west wing of The Venetian and were wowed by the grandness n elegance of the resort. Deposited our 17 pieces of luggage as it wasn't time for check in yet, n Irene led us to take a shuttle bus to the customs to cross over to 珠海. I couldn't find much info about this city online but Irene reccommended it for it's good n cheap food. After crossing the customs, we found ourselves at a big square at the basement which reminded me of the busy n chaotic train station at 航州 but it was much cleaner n orderly here.

Irene said there was a lot of shopping that could be done here. I was highly doubtful as I could only see a while network of small shops selling counterfeit goods like louis vuitton, gucci and tons of RMB 5 'Mont Blanc' pens.

Yan and mum were injected with a double shot of excitement seeing cheap leggings, pyjamas, erm, panties, n some clothings. Andrew, dad n I left them to gather their buys.

The only shops I can recognize here are KFC n Ajisen Ramen. Alas, I tot, we have almost 6 hours to burn. And so we wondered around and emerged on street level to take a look at their local wet market area.

After looking at the mall directory, I suggested that we look for the bookstore available there which I knew dad will love. Before that was discovered, I chanced upon a sports shop selling badminton n tennis rackets, etc. AND, violins! They were damn cheap and sounded pretty decent too. After lunch, I went back to get one for only SGD70. Happy was I and still am. After months of procrastination, I finally gotten my violin!

There were still about 4 hours before we met the rest for dinner. I noticed an area that was promoted as the new shopping experience at basement 2. Desperate for something interesting, we went down.

Now i got excited, for I saw this was a much much more upmarket n trendy zone. Just at the 2nd shop I saw, I bought a LED clock I have been wanting to buy in singapore and it was selling at at least SGD20 cheaper here! Then I also bought a nice shirt for SGD16. Damage done, as Andrew said. There were 2 bags that i took a liking for. Both are imitations la but I was bought over by their designs n quality. After much hoggling, I decided on a Porter bag, painfully leaving the agnis. b behind. My money was all gone by then. We went back up and finally found the bookstore n dad complained we if only we found it earlier. He bought a stack of books tho. And I bought 2 DVDs: Cape No. 7 and this apparently aj themed City Without Baseball.

After meeting the rest at 5pm, they decided to shop for another 3 hours before taking dinner. Yan was eager to go to basement 2. And I managed to convince my mum that the agnis. b bag is a good buy too. And I got it! :P two bags, 1 shirt n a clock.

We didn't get to taste the cheap seafood as promoted by Irene cuz it would require us to walk some distance so we just settled for a s restaurant there.

We finally checked into The Venetian and it was 4 to one room. It was a suite actually and man, it was gorgeously luxurious.

We retired for the day and planned briefly for our hong kong excursion.


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