tier

ok. so i didn't get my targeted tier 4 in nov. only managed a pathetic tier 2. wtf. After screaming "Tier 4~!! Tier 4!!" and "Rebates!!" when i was dead drunk and concussed at Skunk's wedding, i thought my drive would really get me to Tier 4. BLEAH. offered tonnes of rebates that didn't come in in time for nov. on the bright side, they are coming in in december when i'm almost half dead. Super bad time of the year when no one is paying up their credit card bills but spend money on useless gifts and holidays. working 12 bloody hours days almost everyday. 8.30am to 8.30pm and they make it sound like they are goddess of mercy by granting us to claim dinner and cab fare.

another postive thingy - i've graduated~! managed a pass for international monetary economics which i am more than glad. Pass was exactly wat i was aiming for.

gotten a new haircut after almost 2 mths of not cutting it. i gave up keeping long hair again. super irritating and makes me feel tired even.

footnote: to teach or not to teach?

fcukers

suddenly just got damn pissed off and angry with my exes for owing me money still happily going on holidays. and have the cheek to come and tell me about it. fcuk u.

hmm

UPDATE: i didn't manage to get up and go for pump

seeing someone now.. nice and sweet. looks wise not exactly my type but ok la. he looks smart and sharp in shirts. hit it off really well, spent almost the entire weekend together and we can really talk. struggling a bit to just let myself go and be cared for. Can see this time round its really him who wants to meet up more than me. It used to be always the opposite. Its not like i dun want to meet him, i do miss him actually, but just..its like, the desire is not as strong and i feel bad. Its such feelings that make me question about the feasibility of us. just dun like the feeling of thinking i may not be giving the person his worth. But whenever i meet up with him the feeling is just there, just right. He has a very nasal voice tho. haha.

melbourne trip in less than 2 weeks' time and i'm still not really preparing. diez. teboy asked me how much money i changing. didn't really think about it, told him $500. hope its enough.

Oly E-P1 (aka trv.frost) got a firmware update today! updating was a breeze. but too tired to try anything. yet i still had the energy to shop on ebay! wahaha. keep going back to look at the oakley toolbox 4.0 backpack. damn nice.. Went with Ryan to Mont Blanc yesterday also.. that was only me 2nd time entering Mont Blanc. He wanted to buy a wallet for his Sam. There was one 'checked' wallet damn nice!! and i was surprised it costs only $330. Too bad Sam only wants wallet with coin compartments. wasted lahhh....

goodnite! =p

anyway. first time i hit my incentives! Tier 2. ok la. not too bad. and the best thing is the Long term promise arrangements seem to be pretty effective! as of yesterday, already 108 promises kept, target is 350. pretty decent i think. last mth was so worried KP won't be enough. now i'm more worried about the $$ collected. time to offer more rebates!

worried about kc... sigh. went out with RJ for dinner. went shop shop.. really just on very frenly terms with him. a new fren found! =]

trying to get myself up tmr morning for 7am pump at paragon. hehe. u think i'm gonna make it? =p

ha! another late night

after hot flow yoga yesterday and then bodypump tdy, i tot ok, i must sleep today. no online pls. and i tot ok, why not leave a line on my blog and go sleep. came online and it didn't stop.

MC asked me, what is love. how u know its love.

love is.. thinking of the person all the time, u think of him when going to bed, have him on ur mind when making decisions, its having him beside u when sleeping even tho after like 30 mins u'll stop hugging each other and sleep apart. Its about just having him beside u in bed, altho it had been uncomfy squeezing in a super single bed or worrying about ur family coming back the next day and u gotta make sure both of u wake up in time to leave before they come back. Or its about sleeping together on holiday, at chalet, hotel, etc, and hope the end of the trip doesn't come. its just...about sharing, converging 2 individuals, not necessarily into 1 life but to run along towards the same point at the horizon. looking fwd to loving again..

Wat a day!

Well, I THINK i finally hit Tier 1 already.. but its pro-rated targets la. I think next month no more liao. Hope this mth's long-term promises come in next mth then no need so bia next mth.. Somemore going for compliance leave. Now... hoping can hit Tier 2 actually, yet already quite nua to cheong. hehe.

Went to Yann's dermatologist finally on tue during lunch =P and spent $310.. as expected, no cure for my panda eyes, just try to lighten. So tired these few days cuz rushing a freelance poster for food republic. Poster for Nasi Briyani - Teh Tarik combo set. HAHA. Finally finished, shd be final revision liao.

Got time-off 1hour tomoro! I want to go gym.

Anyway, watched 'The Proposal' with Bian, Shuyin, Daphne, Emily, and co. Wrote a little after-tot after the show: -

Just finished watching 'The Proposal' with my colleagues. Wasn't a fantastic show but I think it finally made me think why I wanna be in love, and what made it so tough to get over Cody.

Intimacy is wat that is so, so special between humans. It's not the sex, not the nakedness, not the orgasm. It's...watching that one person u are so close to, the closest in ur life at that point in ur life, watch him sleep. I miss most about that in a relationship. To be just there, to feel him near, watch him breathe gently, heart beating, and smell that scent exuding from him.

About marriage.. It's such a, may I say sacred thing, that commits and devotes each other to their lives. You no longer are trying to find ur goals in life with ur bf, u are just going TO those goals in life, hand in hand. And guess wat, Cody proposed to me. NZ. That's where he planned for our wedding. Sceptical and almost ridiculous it was to me, it probably touched me heart deep deep down inside. To have someone so serious and really ready to devote and commit, was a damn powerful thing.

No bf won't die. It's just a sweeter journey in life with someone to support you, and knowing someone needs u in his life as well. To share the good, the bad and your rewards, the achievements in life.

blade

went to ecp to blade with GR, DV and JM. A day spent trying not to fall and err watching jim fall. ouch. being tall, i think all his falls were pretty nasty. i was soehow a lil' uptight about myself. i duno. seemed to be rushing all the time. just can't slow down. BAD.

can't f**king sleep

why do i always feel so bloody tired outside only to come home finding difficulties in getting a decent deep sleep?

but its going to be a great day, everyday from now on. I know cuz i can control it. Everything can be within your control. Good or bad day, its just a state of mind. Treat 'negative' things as challenges that will improve meself, and strengthen and tough meself. Xtina Aguilera's /fighter/ is a good reference.