Family - What?

would it be better that i haven't been so nice and close to them at all from the start?
 
 
be an unfillial son so that they won't be disappointed when they find out i'm gay?

mum wants to abort me.

2nd sis is rejecting my life.

i've been a nice son and brother (at least to my eldest sis and elder brother)

does being gay change who i am?

but this is exactly who i am, the real me.

they have expectations of me, and feel i'm indebted to them for me life.

so should i die for them?