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tier

2009-12-07T23:20:00.002+08:00

ok. so i didn't get my targeted tier 4 in nov. only managed a pathetic tier 2. wtf. After screaming "Tier 4~!! Tier 4!!" and "Rebates!!" when i was dead drunk and concussed at Skunk's wedding, i thought my drive would really get me to Tier 4. BLEAH. offered tonnes of rebates that didn't come in in time for nov. on the bright side, they are coming in in december when i'm almost half dead. Super bad time of the year when no one is paying up their credit card bills but spend money on useless gifts and holidays. working 12 bloody hours days almost everyday. 8.30am to 8.30pm and they make it sound like they are goddess of mercy by granting us to claim dinner and cab fare.

another postive thingy - i've graduated~! managed a pass for international monetary economics which i am more than glad. Pass was exactly wat i was aiming for.

gotten a new haircut after almost 2 mths of not cutting it. i gave up keeping long hair again. super irritating and makes me feel tired even.

footnote: to teach or not to teach?

fcukers

2009-11-20T01:01:00.002+08:00

suddenly just got damn pissed off and angry with my exes for owing me money still happily going on holidays. and have the cheek to come and tell me about it. fcuk u.

hmm

2009-09-15T23:35:00.003+08:00

UPDATE: i didn't manage to get up and go for pump

seeing someone now.. nice and sweet. looks wise not exactly my type but ok la. he looks smart and sharp in shirts. hit it off really well, spent almost the entire weekend together and we can really talk. struggling a bit to just let myself go and be cared for. Can see this time round its really him who wants to meet up more than me. It used to be always the opposite. Its not like i dun want to meet him, i do miss him actually, but just..its like, the desire is not as strong and i feel bad. Its such feelings that make me question about the feasibility of us. just dun like the feeling of thinking i may not be giving the person his worth. But whenever i meet up with him the feeling is just there, just right. He has a very nasal voice tho. haha.

melbourne trip in less than 2 weeks' time and i'm still not really preparing. diez. teboy asked me how much money i changing. didn't really think about it, told him $500. hope its enough.

Oly E-P1 (aka trv.frost) got a firmware update today! updating was a breeze. but too tired to try anything. yet i still had the energy to shop on ebay! wahaha. keep going back to look at the oakley toolbox 4.0 backpack. damn nice.. Went with Ryan to Mont Blanc yesterday also.. that was only me 2nd time entering Mont Blanc. He wanted to buy a wallet for his Sam. There was one 'checked' wallet damn nice!! and i was surprised it costs only $330. Too bad Sam only wants wallet with coin compartments. wasted lahhh....

goodnite! =p

2009-09-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

anyway. first time i hit my incentives! Tier 2. ok la. not too bad. and the best thing is the Long term promise arrangements seem to be pretty effective! as of yesterday, already 108 promises kept, target is 350. pretty decent i think. last mth was so worried KP won't be enough. now i'm more worried about the $$ collected. time to offer more rebates!

worried about kc... sigh. went out with RJ for dinner. went shop shop.. really just on very frenly terms with him. a new fren found! =]

trying to get myself up tmr morning for 7am pump at paragon. hehe. u think i'm gonna make it? =p

ha! another late night

2009-09-09T01:20:00.003+08:00

after hot flow yoga yesterday and then bodypump tdy, i tot ok, i must sleep today. no online pls. and i tot ok, why not leave a line on my blog and go sleep. came online and it didn't stop.

MC asked me, what is love. how u know its love.

love is.. thinking of the person all the time, u think of him when going to bed, have him on ur mind when making decisions, its having him beside u when sleeping even tho after like 30 mins u'll stop hugging each other and sleep apart. Its about just having him beside u in bed, altho it had been uncomfy squeezing in a super single bed or worrying about ur family coming back the next day and u gotta make sure both of u wake up in time to leave before they come back. Or its about sleeping together on holiday, at chalet, hotel, etc, and hope the end of the trip doesn't come. its just...about sharing, converging 2 individuals, not necessarily into 1 life but to run along towards the same point at the horizon. looking fwd to loving again..

Wat a day!

2009-08-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

Well, I THINK i finally hit Tier 1 already.. but its pro-rated targets la. I think next month no more liao. Hope this mth's long-term promises come in next mth then no need so bia next mth.. Somemore going for compliance leave. Now... hoping can hit Tier 2 actually, yet already quite nua to cheong. hehe.

Went to Yann's dermatologist finally on tue during lunch =P and spent $310.. as expected, no cure for my panda eyes, just try to lighten. So tired these few days cuz rushing a freelance poster for food republic. Poster for Nasi Briyani - Teh Tarik combo set. HAHA. Finally finished, shd be final revision liao.

Got time-off 1hour tomoro! I want to go gym.

Anyway, watched 'The Proposal' with Bian, Shuyin, Daphne, Emily, and co. Wrote a little after-tot after the show: -

Just finished watching 'The Proposal' with my colleagues. Wasn't a fantastic show but I think it finally made me think why I wanna be in love, and what made it so tough to get over Cody.

Intimacy is wat that is so, so special between humans. It's not the sex, not the nakedness, not the orgasm. It's...watching that one person u are so close to, the closest in ur life at that point in ur life, watch him sleep. I miss most about that in a relationship. To be just there, to feel him near, watch him breathe gently, heart beating, and smell that scent exuding from him.

About marriage.. It's such a, may I say sacred thing, that commits and devotes each other to their lives. You no longer are trying to find ur goals in life with ur bf, u are just going TO those goals in life, hand in hand. And guess wat, Cody proposed to me. NZ. That's where he planned for our wedding. Sceptical and almost ridiculous it was to me, it probably touched me heart deep deep down inside. To have someone so serious and really ready to devote and commit, was a damn powerful thing.

No bf won't die. It's just a sweeter journey in life with someone to support you, and knowing someone needs u in his life as well. To share the good, the bad and your rewards, the achievements in life.

blade

2009-08-24T00:29:00.002+08:00

went to ecp to blade with GR, DV and JM. A day spent trying not to fall and err watching jim fall. ouch. being tall, i think all his falls were pretty nasty. i was soehow a lil' uptight about myself. i duno. seemed to be rushing all the time. just can't slow down. BAD.

can't f**king sleep

2009-08-13T06:28:00.003+08:00

why do i always feel so bloody tired outside only to come home finding difficulties in getting a decent deep sleep?

but its going to be a great day, everyday from now on. I know cuz i can control it. Everything can be within your control. Good or bad day, its just a state of mind. Treat 'negative' things as challenges that will improve meself, and strengthen and tough meself. Xtina Aguilera's /fighter/ is a good reference.

Put a stop to it!

2009-08-12T23:34:00.003+08:00

you know wat i'm saying?
yes. this, and that.

emo-ing, etc. think i shd prob make an attempt to ditch emo (negative) mando songs.

and, THAT you-know-who. Better frens than nothng right?

Oh ya. one more thing. SELF WORTH! you're worth everything good in the world trv. allow yourself to be loved, cared and shown concern. embrace all the good things in life and not feel guilty about taking them in you IDIOT!!!! ok ilovemyselfilovemylifeilovemyjobilovemyfriends

mad national day

2009-08-11T00:31:00.002+08:00

zirca on a sunday night after a stupid 2 hour wait.. danced quite a bit, fought hard to stay sober to take care of david, while GR took care of Jim. It was really sweet to see them hold hands and embrace each other in the club. it wasn't those super aj kind.. they were so gentle and tender. made my heart sour for the whole night actually..

can't imagine we came to my place for mahjong after that.. surprisingly sober for the game.

i need to spruce up my blog.. my own website domain is still not utilised. so stupid. saw GR's blog.. pretty nice and motivational. ha. i (really really) envy how the few of them can take photos so carefree-lly.. i can't remember when was the last time i could take a photo of myself not feeling conscious of my dark eye rings.

david said i sleep or dun sleep i still look the same. that really hurt.. somehow, this period has been my most vulnerable period.. self-confidence seem to be at all time low.

contemplating seeing a derm.. but yet i dun really feel like spending that money, esp if the results (if any) are only for the short term. i just want to look pleasant, not haggard. just normal. arghh.

hullo.. freins? frens? friends?

2009-08-08T00:46:00.002+08:00

i really wonder everytime. i see my friends online, but they didn't say hi. then i check, if i'm in invisible mode. Nope. then why the hell do they not say hi. i'll initiate a chat, ask them. They'll say they are busy or something (when their status are 'available'). If u're busy, just stay offline. If u're really just busy chatting with someone else, say so. i'm in particularly talking about those in my 'Best Frens' and 'Circle' groups contacts. Bleah. Just feel like, am i really ur fren? Do they even care? maybe i start staying offline and i died for 3 weeks noone would even notice.

lalala

2009-08-06T01:04:00.003+08:00

love to listen to Orange Moon.. its just. so nice.

nv fails to remind me of Cody. the nights in phuket with him. at the beach. writing our sweet thingys on the sand.. roaming around not knowing wat to do.. cuz we had very limited funds. but it was just really sweet. i can't remember if there was moonlight those very nights.. but Orange Moon really felt exactly like wat we had in phuket.. Baskin Robbins ice cream.. failed waterfall hike and the attempt to ride a scooter that went almost terribly wrong.

There we sat among the thousand, fools just like us, but not so in love like us.
There we spoke of all our feelings, and dreams were born like that, and we hope for love like that.

Now your dreams have changed and we are far apart. I dont know when or where to start, deleting you from my mind. I want to stand with you again. I hope to find you here again. Then the eternal sunshine.

I'll search for the orange moon that lit up all of the ocean while I held your hand. And now watch all the waves from the stone where we gaze to the golden sun. And if I see the horizon, those the same as it did when we stood on the hill. I will make the arrangements, just wait on that corner for me. And if you drop me a line, I will sure to make these arrangements.

Lay your head upon my shoulder, I'll sing a two or three sweet melodies for thee. Softly speak, to say 我爱你, why do you leave, my heart is at your feet.

Well, I like to share three words again, these words with you again if you think its possible. And maybe I can pull you close and whisper in your ear again that I want you in my life forever.

You are like the summer rain that cools me, that soothes me. You are the person that I pray for everyday. Maybe we'll sit on those steps once again, maybe we won't turn out have to pretend, you will be here in my imaginings, fade imaginings.

love you...

great day.. but makes me even more vulnerable

2009-08-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

had a great day today actually. Was supposed to wake up at 6.45am to ride Treky to work.. but decided i shd sleep more till 7.15am. By the time i got ready, it was 7.30am.. i thought, 'you can do it, dun be lazy!' And so i rode out at 7.35am and reached Fitness First Millenia Walk at 8.05am. Took a shower and went to work.

Lunched in and clocked 119 contacts by the time manning in bound. quite a feat. After cycle allocation, it took me a while to realise i AM the cycle ic for 13! Pulled list and allocated lists for Rachel, Pamela and Juliana. Felt a bit of sense of achievement.

At the end of the day, i clocked 152 contacts! plus my saturday's additional results of 44, total 196 contacts by the 1st working day in August! Good job, Trev!

Went for Hot Flow Yoga class with Yann, but it wasn't hot leh. Boring.

Came home and Jenny told me over MSN, that KC is waiting for reply from Charles and Keith.. If successful, he will be posted to China. Somehow.. loneliness just set in me that moment. Images of him leaving at the airport made me realise i will definitely cry when he leaves. But, at the same time i really do know he is not for me. Prob just a moment of vulnerability. When things go well, a bachelor just feels empty, with no one intimate to share good news or success with.

I know KC and i won't work out.. cuz i know he has not and prob never will even read my blog. What bf ignores ur blog when he knows u actually has one?

Where's my love?

Olympus E-P1 and Treky must be with me

2009-07-19T23:31:00.003+08:00

Today i finally took Treky out for a real ride. But i forgot my gloves.

It was quite a nerve wrecking journey. the roads seem bigger when you're on bicycle and lane change was almost impossible.

anyway, bumped into Dawn at FF. then we went shopping cuz she was done with her workout and i was too shagged from riding there. keke. after that i went back to FF to workout a bit.. then packed economic rice and rode to Singapore Flyer area to eat and dine.

That was like the perfect emo-ing spot. just when i reached, froth was playing Lux Arumque. power. never felt that kind of peace for a long time. and, THIS is that sort of moments i want to capture with camera!!! And my D80 is just NOT good enough for it, cuz its too BIGGGG.. SO, i decided that Oly E-P1 is a need. WAHAHHA..

Took a few pics with froth anyway..

Trekky!!

2009-06-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

Sharon just err 'sold' me her road bike. Gave her, yann and jimmy a treat at Brotzeit.

Treky is light IMO and handsome! just like me. haha. Planning to ride it to work. whee..

End of Role as Full Time Student..

2009-05-21T11:07:00.000+08:00

My full time student life kinda ended on 8 May 2009 along with my last paper.

Applied for conversion to part time studies and have since been accepted, I applied for credit control officer position in Citibank via Wayne. During my exams, I was called up for interview. It was very much a first of many things for me.. Sending resume, going for interviews.

First interview was damn long la... Met Gail and Cassandra and was grilled for an hour. Screwed up when I was asked 'where do u see yourself in 1 year's time if u got this job?' I honestly was not treating it very seriously and tot of it as a 'filler' for my part time final sem. SO... I stupidly said would like to venture other departmentsblike operations or investments. My interviewer shot back ' we are definitely not looking for ppl who treat this position as a stepping stone to other departments or to tide over the recession period.' :O Damn stunned I was.

I then asked of the career prospects within the department and explained my myopic view of the department. And I was explained the various career advancement opportunities and such. Gail did me a great favour by asking me again how do I see myself in future. According to Wayne, Cassandra almost gave up on me already. Luckily Gail asked me again. That was the biggest U-turn I had ever made.

After an hour I thought it was over but was handed over to the manager for another 30 min.

Heng I got to siam the interview with the director who somehow approved my resume without interviewing me. Haha.
So, I was eventually given an offer I think is attractive enough and I started work TEN bloody short days after my 2 months battle with my dear RMIT.

In between I converted my room into a more spacious one by chucking my 10 year old ginormous desk, had a 3 night chalet, painted my room, settled my Pru clients' documentation and err meeting NBK to tender my resignation.

Training this week has so far been kinda boring. Yesterday and today are sit in observation and is boring all of us to tears. And that is exactly why I have the time to actually blog now on my Froth.

As it turned out, my peers had went thru at least 3 interviews each and were longer than my 1.5 hours. And hmm surprisingly, my basic is slightly higher than the rest. :P happy boy I am.

Multitasking

2009-03-29T03:23:00.002+08:00

While /<< keeps talking about how ppl find him looking younger than his actual age, i get sad thinking and actually knowing how old i have been looking. All those stress, late nights and work (school, design, prudential, blogstores).. How can i ever have stayed looking young? I used to be such a baby face.. after all these years of slogging thru late nights studying as i have to work in the day or something, how possible is it to even just look my age?

VS seniors who have seen me recently sad i aged a lot. That really saddens me.

With all the awkwardness and even coldness going on at home, and an empty bank a/c, i really have been thinking about what the hell exactly have i been working so damn hard for.

Family, Friends, Fame, Fortune, Boyfriend.. Wat?

So, I really want to make money.. save up, and get an apartment on my own. I set to celebrate my 30th birthday in my very own apartment. 5 years (with this year inclusive). Dun get me wrong. I still love my family. Its just, they haven't came to accept me yet. I duno if it really is so selfish and too much of me to expect them to accept me, but, if they do love me, they should. But then again, it is also that they love me hence their reactions. I duno. Life's a mess now. Rachel, Ron and Alicia subsidised me for a DVD player, and the Prudents (current and ex) got me a bluetoth mouse that i pretty much love. The thing about the DVD player is, the situation at home is so not optimal that i even feel guilty about upping the entertainment, leisure, enjoyment factor in my very own room. Cuz apparently it seems to Yan that my life isn't miserable enough to be described as that by me.

The only sweet thang was that /<< gave me a pretty nice surprise for my 26th bday and for our 1st anniversary. Not bad really, my 2nd longest r/s thus far..

Looking at Jimmy and Yann's cosy nice 'East End' could bring me to tears..of envy and more envy.....

Swamped with commitments and responsibilities in the many areas (sch, design, and more design, prudential, the hattys, luminurz, family, /<<, forex).. I was falling apart. But now, the goal: 30 @ my very own...

Pulling everything back together.. move on, head on.

GOD

2009-03-09T02:41:00.003+08:00

Actually, wat i have been troubled and even disgusted about is the above-mentioned.

He is my Father too. So, whatever i said about my parents and siblings apply to Him as well.

No offence to anyone or any religion.

NOT marrying women

2009-03-09T02:30:00.003+08:00

Yan said i should keep to my promise if i did promise not to bring him back anymore. but, have i ever, EVER promised i'll be straight, i'll get married to a woman? What sort of mindset did my parents have when they brought me up? What made most parents bring up their children with the expectation that they would become great scientists, lawyers, millionaires, and that they will be married to the opposite sex regardless of whether those 'mainstream' marriages would be happy ones or not?

Should i have made it clear to them that i'm not going to be what they expect of me by flunking my exams and turning stray, getting into bad company, not caring about my ties with the family? Would that be easier for them to accept that i'm GAY? Since i'd have been a hell of a son and brother anyway.

I've been trying to please most ppl, at least to those that i myself care for. But no one in my family is treating me and loving me for me at all. They want me to be their loving, sensitive, fillial, successful, good, doting son, brother, uncle BUT they freak out and threatened to turn their backs on me when they realised, i'm all the above EXCEPT that i'm GAY.

Kill me already. Kill me.

Family - What?

2009-03-09T01:16:00.003+08:00

would it be better that i haven't been so nice and close to them at all from the start?

be an unfillial son so that they won't be disappointed when they find out i'm gay?

mum wants to abort me.

2nd sis is rejecting my life.

i've been a nice son and brother (at least to my eldest sis and elder brother)

does being gay change who i am?

but this is exactly who i am, the real me.

they have expectations of me, and feel i'm indebted to them for me life.

so should i die for them?

Praise the Lord for Alston!

2009-02-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

Praise the Lord for a healthy baby boy Alston!

My sister Yvette just gave birth to her second child, Alston, on 16 Feb 2009 around 11.20pm!

YaY~!

2008-12-04T11:58:00.001+08:00

Hurray to clearing all modules. Thank God.

Still on track to graduate in Sept 2009. wahaha.. 2 sems to go!

Investment module - CLEARED!

2008-12-04T00:37:00.003+08:00

HEHEHEHE... i managed to miraculously clear my Investment module with a Credit (64 marks). Ron got a Distinction with 70 marks and Kston got a Distinction with 74 marks. Then Rachel (so funny) who was at work, asked me to log into her account to check for her. she passed with 54 marks. Thank God!!! And she was so erm emo, she cried! hehehhe Watever. Rachel, we did it!

Alicia scored a Distinction for her Biz Finance..cool. i managed only a Pass last sem. Heck.

The Venetian

2008-11-23T00:35:00.000+08:00

Yan n I left Venetian at about 9.30am for 珠海 and took us an hour to cross over after cheating our way thru the senior citizens and disabled lane at the Macau customs.

I went back to buy one more set of violin strings and shoulder rest, another 2 pairs of shoes n 2 jackets. I couldn't find any nice shoes for dearie. :( he likes white shoes. The stuff were not cut throat cheap but were at comfortable prices that prob won't be available in Singapore unless at at least 50% sale.

It was a mad rush back to The Venetian as we wanted to have half a day at The Venetian itself.

Back at Venetian, we met the aunties for lunch at a food court then we explored the shoppng area. The architecture was truly stunning and the way they incorporated the 'river canals' into this mamothmous thing was just amazing. Shopping here was undoubtedly expensive. I bought some biotherm items at the dfs only.

Lost SGD100 at my first visit to the casino before I headed back to the room to pack, plan and worry about my luggage weight.

I went to sleep worrying bout not having bought anything for dearie tho.

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HK Day

2008-11-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

It was hong kong day and we were going to take the Cotai Jet over. At the ferry terminal, irene was stunned to see customs counters after passing the boarding area. She had adviced the aumties that no passports were required to cross over. They had to go back to get theirs. Thankfully my family always had our passports in us, so we crossed over first.

The hongkong ferry terminal was at 上环 n we were starving. Maxim's dim sum was our target but couldn't find it anywhere. Wat was availble was only Maxim's fast food. Dad was freaking hungry and didn't agree that we continued searching. Yan enquired at maxim's fast food and luckily there was a branch just nearby.

On the 3rd floor if vicwood plaza was this 潮源 restaurant which is a subsidiary under Maxims. It served mainly teochew cusine and there was no dim sum push carts around sadly. There were a few unique teochew dim sum items tho and they tasted really good. Coupled with some other dim sum items and porridge (soupy teochew style too, I love), the lunch was satisfying but not cheap (HKD517 for 5 pax).

Next was taking the MTR to Wong Tai Sin temple. At the station, old aunties hawked and hard-sold the offering items like joss-sticks. Luckily mum didn't budge as these were actually not allowed to be brought into the temple.

We prayed, looked around and took some must-have photos and headed in search of cheap shopping.

We reached 深水颇 to go 长沙湾道 where there are ladies' fashion at wholesale prices. The guys split from the girls as usual n we chanced upon this are that was like Singapore's Sungei Road flea market. It was actually the 匣聊街 where electronic goods, new n second hand ones were traded. I didn't harbour hopes of getting anything here but it was interesting to experience the local bustle. Dad was thrilled to see the hardware stores and Andrew looked at car accessories. I managed to buy two iPhone covers for only SGD7 each. Both are of decent quality.

I found the MR magazine too, after seeing its advertising billboards at the MTR stations, featuring the SDB Thai actor/model Mario Maurer.

A failed mission to find the adidas outlet at Lai Chi Kok station, we then headed to Mongkok, where the ladies street n sports goods street are.

The famous desserts shop 许留山was right in front of us at exit e2 and we took a much needed break. Yan, mum n dad took to the Ladies Street while Andre and I hunted for sports stuff at Fa Yuen Street. I bought a pair of adidas originals for SGD 55 and Andre got a Nike basketball jacket for about HKD450. Then we met up with the rest cuz they called to complain ladies street was shite.

Then we took the MTR to Central Station n had to walk up a hill to the Peak Tram. There was quite a crowd queueing for the tram and each tram took like 5 min to arrive. Along the way up were the upmarket residences. At the top, we headed up to the err top n the view was indeed enchanting. We settled for a Burger King dinner and toured the peak area a bit more.

Then it was back to Macau.

It was a pretty disappointing day as there was almost zero shopping and Yan and I planned to returntn to 珠海 for more shopping.

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珠海 (Zhu Hai) shopping!

2008-11-21T22:00:00.000+08:00

Today we left Casa Real Hotel taking a free shuttle service to the ferry terminal from which we took another free shuttle service to The Venetian.

We arrived at the west wing of The Venetian and were wowed by the grandness n elegance of the resort. Deposited our 17 pieces of luggage as it wasn't time for check in yet, n Irene led us to take a shuttle bus to the customs to cross over to 珠海. I couldn't find much info about this city online but Irene reccommended it for it's good n cheap food. After crossing the customs, we found ourselves at a big square at the basement which reminded me of the busy n chaotic train station at 航州 but it was much cleaner n orderly here.

Irene said there was a lot of shopping that could be done here. I was highly doubtful as I could only see a while network of small shops selling counterfeit goods like louis vuitton, gucci and tons of RMB 5 'Mont Blanc' pens.

Yan and mum were injected with a double shot of excitement seeing cheap leggings, pyjamas, erm, panties, n some clothings. Andrew, dad n I left them to gather their buys.

The only shops I can recognize here are KFC n Ajisen Ramen. Alas, I tot, we have almost 6 hours to burn. And so we wondered around and emerged on street level to take a look at their local wet market area.

After looking at the mall directory, I suggested that we look for the bookstore available there which I knew dad will love. Before that was discovered, I chanced upon a sports shop selling badminton n tennis rackets, etc. AND, violins! They were damn cheap and sounded pretty decent too. After lunch, I went back to get one for only SGD70. Happy was I and still am. After months of procrastination, I finally gotten my violin!

There were still about 4 hours before we met the rest for dinner. I noticed an area that was promoted as the new shopping experience at basement 2. Desperate for something interesting, we went down.

Now i got excited, for I saw this was a much much more upmarket n trendy zone. Just at the 2nd shop I saw, I bought a LED clock I have been wanting to buy in singapore and it was selling at at least SGD20 cheaper here! Then I also bought a nice shirt for SGD16. Damage done, as Andrew said. There were 2 bags that i took a liking for. Both are imitations la but I was bought over by their designs n quality. After much hoggling, I decided on a Porter bag, painfully leaving the agnis. b behind. My money was all gone by then. We went back up and finally found the bookstore n dad complained we if only we found it earlier. He bought a stack of books tho. And I bought 2 DVDs: Cape No. 7 and this apparently aj themed City Without Baseball.

After meeting the rest at 5pm, they decided to shop for another 3 hours before taking dinner. Yan was eager to go to basement 2. And I managed to convince my mum that the agnis. b bag is a good buy too. And I got it! :P two bags, 1 shirt n a clock.

We didn't get to taste the cheap seafood as promoted by Irene cuz it would require us to walk some distance so we just settled for a s restaurant there.

We finally checked into The Venetian and it was 4 to one room. It was a suite actually and man, it was gorgeously luxurious.

We retired for the day and planned briefly for our hong kong excursion.

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Macau

2008-11-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

Macau has been nothing exciting other than it's weather here that's so thrilling.

After reaching our hotel Casa Real to dump the luggage in one of the rooms, Irene led us to the Ruins of St Paul church, along which she got a bit unsure n happily passed the task of identifying the right place to alight.

We reached Senoda Square n Irene chose a teahouse for our lunch. It was a simple yet rich affair of beef noodles, wanton mee, pork chop bun, etc, Cantonese style.

Along the way, it was frustrating to travel with these relatives who are so oblivious to everyone else n take their own sweet time strolling. On top of that, they expect the 'young ones' to reccee and plan n instruct them where to go, how to go, like young ppl are geniuses who know a new destination inside out.

If I had known these were going to be my travel mates, I'd never agree to the trip.

Fisherman's wharf after checking in. Exhilerating buy empty place that reminds me of fail sentosa attractions like Asian Village, Volcano Land and fantasy island. Dinner was a boring Sichuan one altho I tried to fight for jap food. The folks decided not to surprise me by sticking to their non-surprising choice.

After tat, Andrew, Yan n I decided to explore a bit more n dad decided to follow us while the rest went for a full body massage at a dubious looking 'mall'.

Went back to Senoda Square but didn't land any purchases. Hopefully Venetian and Zhuhai tomoro really surprise n impress me.

trv on iPhone

Stupid Tiger

2008-11-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

Ok. I'm on the stupid tiger airways right now in the mid air 35,000 over watever sea at 6.40am Singapore time. I'm travelling to Macau, hk n zhuhai with my parents, my elder sis n her Bf Andrew who last min decided he is coming along n giving his uncle's funeral a miss.

Yesterday, sensing that my luggage seem heavy, I checked online for the baggage allowance for this stupid airline. I was shocked to read comments here and there that Tiger has started charging for each check in luggage. $10 for 15kg luggage and so on. I smsed Yan to confirm our baggage allowance. She said allowed 15kg. So I tot ok, supposing she had checked the tickets.

At the check in counter, we were served by an apparent China born guy who conveniently spoke to us in mandarin. N tada! We were not allowed to check in our luggages as we didn't opt for the 'upsize'. For each luggage, we had to pay $25. Wth. So being the typical Teos, we started panicking. Irene, one of the 3 aunts of mine together in this trip decided that some of our luggage are small enough to be hand carried instead. So fine. The few of them checked in and it was our turn. I realized, shite, if I hand carry on my luggage it's gonna mean I have to discard n surrender all my perfume, facial wash, hair styling wax n all. So I decided to check it in anyway. So, Irene wanted to tombang my luggage for some of her expensive facial care products. But, the padlock dad kindly lent her got the number combination screwed up. So panick again. Fjnaly got it solved n then the China guy was serving others in the line already. Then Yan realized she had an orange label that seemed impt, butbif it were for claiming our checked in luggage , then why do we only have one? And, some of us didn't have a boarding pass but had green slips of paper.

After much confusing confrontation, Mr China guy re-issued our luggage labels n only upon questioning did he explain that those who had to pay for the check in luggage, will only get their boarding passes after paying at the service counter. Arghhh. How could he just assume we know this procedure!?

At the departure gate, we were 'greeted' by this rude Indian Tiger airways staff checking on our hand-carry luggage. Dad's was close to 8kg when the allowed was 7. So I asked if he and my mum could share the hand carry luggage load, miss indian lady sacarstically pointed to a sign there to say it is strictly not allowed. Wat a stupid policy. She explained that they are trying to keep load effectively. I told her the counter staff okayed my dad's hand carry luggage she said 'the country staff don't know anything' so who are we to listen to? I asked. 'Me. ' she said. Wth. So if it doesn't pass here, we need to go back out n check in our stuff? She reluctantly let us pass, saying 'next time listen to us' i said shaking my head, 'sorry no more next time. No more tiger airways for me. '

Then, dad realized he had hairgel, wax, screw driver, nail clippers, small scissors, etc in his luggage. I gave up trying to solve problems. Just go thru the customs n surrender watever they deemed neccessory I said. Then the announcement for last call came. I told all to hasten up. To make it worse, the customs officer just bloody had to rub it in:'huh Macau ah? Closing already!' he said pointing to the PA system.

At the luggage scan, dad's luggage got opened up and the security Mdm took her time going thru a zip lock bag of mini screwdrivers n co. I told them nvm, just take them if needed. They still dilly dallied. After carefully selecting the items, they needed dad to sign. Argh.

We then hurried towards gate 4 n one lucky thing was that the dumb feline now assigned seats.

And here we are, FINALY back on track. I didn't even have time to call the mindef notification centre to notify my trip. I tried a few times earlier on to notify multiple destinations but the system is shite. So on the plane before it moved, I called again n just declared I was going hongkong.

Things hopefully won't get any worse.

trv on iPhone

Hiccups.

2008-11-19T01:29:00.002+08:00

Opps. Sis' bf is not going on trip with us anymore. His uncle passed away and my sis is pissing away.

Had to move the car to mum's fren's condo (not too) nearby to park and walk back. Came back had to pacify my sis a bit then try to see if Andrew's flight can be changed. Oh man. The Teos really treat their BFs toooooo damn well. Watever. Now i'm back to being stuck with me sister for the trip. BLEAH.

Oh and i think due to all these chaos, i have decided, for the first time since 2004, to NOT bring my lappie with me. Cuz i just heard on the news that something like Europeans have declared they can't do without internet. So i figured its a good chance for me to erm. let go. Altho i'll still be having my handy Froth (iPhone la) with me!

Its now 1.33am. Cab's coming at 3.45am and we're supposed to reach at 4am to check in. Sleep? hrm. not going to get much of it i see. Fake 'cucumber' slices here i come!

BRB..

2008-11-18T15:07:00.002+08:00

Oh well. the expected happened. after exams i just can't be bothered to blog.

Anywayz, i've been to the counsellor blah blah and decided not to take up their 'proposal' for change.

And then Yann introduced me to her fren who is into marketing and tada, i'll be doing some webpage designs soon.

Then...err..oh. got to stay over at /<< house for 2 consecutive nights. Mum sounded pretty worried tho.

Then.. i have been roughly planning our schedule for Macau/HK trip.. Bryan was nice to exchange some of his leftover HK$ and pass me some handy maps and guides for reference, all via Sandy of course.

Hmm.

So far.. i'm very touched by some of my dear frens who expressed concern over my 'counseling' session. Thank you all.. I'm fine and will be even better!

And its off to Macau/HK tmr at the wee hours of 3.45am (flight's at 6am).. and i hope there'll be minimal awkwardness amongst my family and me and hope we'll all enjoy the trip. Altho my sis offered to pay for my trip...i feel bad. Suddenly everyone seems to be like damn caring.. which kinda gets irritating. hee.

Whatever. I'll BRB...its a 5 day trip.. a trip so 'short' that he didn't say will miss me (cuz he didn't say he won't miss me either).

I should be bringing this metal toyie along.. so prob can blog a bit there if given internet access bah.

finale~!

2008-11-05T08:44:00.002+08:00

I'm in the school library now preparing for my last paper for this disastrous semester. Investment was a big flop n Rachel n I are still praying for a miracle.

Feelings kinda mixed cuz after this, there's the BIG thing to settle with mum. And right after this it's meeting FA time for Experience Singapore n will need to work on the secret project for the next 2 days.

Brought my D80 with my proud new lens out. Later can take some shots bah. Can't wait!

What the Hedge. I'm Fudged.

2008-10-27T09:45:00.002+08:00

Returned from Rachel's place and felt like i needed a nap. Alas, the nap lasted thru the night and i woke up when the sun did. And flu again. Bleah.

Kinda finally figured out how to do bond calculations with my Texas BAII Plus. So, the bond price computed is not thebond price. The figures shown are the price per100. What the hedge.

From the latest copy of 8 days i've gotten, Fann and Chris are gonna have 'The Wedding of the Year' and the catch? It is nottheir actual wedding. Raintree Pictures has (not so) cleverly came up with a script that involves 2 characters (to be played by Fann and Chris of course) who hates each other to the core but decided to get married in favour of a career boost, in the movie.

After being filled with a thousand question marks from that cover story, i am now back in the reality of potentially being fudgedfor investment exam.

Now back to trying not to be fudged.

Investment @ Rachel's

2008-10-26T15:47:00.002+08:00

Heee.. i think the ploy to get meself blogging is probably working.

At Rachel's place now, trying to discuss investment questions. The Rachel is becoming the BLUE (CJC) incredible hulk, roaring away exactly like her green counter part.

We're struggling.

GOSH. At this rate, we'll reallllyyyy be glad to just passss..

Desires during exams/I want to be beautihuul/张杰宇

2008-10-26T03:55:00.006+08:00

I believe Rachel will agree with me that it is always during exams that u realllllyy will have this strong urge to do a hell lot of things... Things that would usually be put somewhere insignificant in your life, where its in the 'got-time-then-do' list. But it is during exams that the list becomes 'after-exams-MUST-do' list which somehow evolves into something you forget to do as the free time you have is taken for granted.

Well, maybe for me, its cuz usually holidays i'd be (trying to be) busy working.

This semester's exams, i have the company of Jay Chou's new album like the last. And the problems i'm having at home are really adding tonnes of stress. It's gonna be endless if i start talking about that. Basically, my prayers have been around the word 'Acceptance'.

Meanwhile, from all the endless surfing around when i should've been mugging, i noticed all the beautihuuul people simply know each other. and i dunno them and that shows that i am...er.. bleah.

Also, i've been struggling with the crazy load of freelance design that i love and hate at the same time. Love it for the money, hate it for the bad timing. Its gonna finish by this week tho and hopefully by the time my exams are over, the $$ would be sitting nicely in my eSaver.

/<< gotten a new mini acer laptop using my sis' credit card. and hope that makes him a happier man. And i'll need to come up with some clever answer to my sis when she asks about it.

Oh. Actually, this post is supposed to be what i wanna do after exams. Basically, i would like to blog more, hence i have just set the blog's dashboard as my home page so that i'll post whenever i have something to say. HRM. Anyway here's a little list so far:

1. Violin
2. Web page design (HMTL and Flash)
3. Facial
4. GYM (!!!)
5. Photography (hopefully with a new Tamron f2.8 (constant!!!!!) 17-50mm)
6. And the inevitable thing - Settle the family problem
7. Earn $$$

But, i guess, i really want to be nice to myself.. i deserve a break. Like HuiZhen mentioned, i'm a reallyyy good boyfriend and boy, i couldn't agree more. He better appreciate me. I probably will go and have a bloody good workout, then go for body pump with the Liews and go home, pop a Fedac (a flu medicine that is so powerfully sleep-inducing) and sleep my way thru the night and the next day.

I also want to be in the league of beautihuul people. So, after all the break and self-pampering, my blog shall be spruced up, and it shall start with a new nice photo of myself. waha. we'll shheee about that.

Exams in 5 days. Can't believe it. God bless.

Oh i forgot to update: i have a tentative new chinese name i came up with - 张杰宇。 yeah yeah, Cody already complained i'm copying but heck.

'is' vs 'it's'

2008-10-21T06:16:00.002+08:00

i hate it when ppl say things like, 'is all thanks to you,' or 'is alright'. Hello? wat the hell language is that?!! It should be 'It's alright' as in 'it is alright'!!! It irritates the hell out of me and its kinda disgusting as well.

Fine, we're singaporeans. But even singlish also got ppl say wrongly one lorr. 'You all' ppl actually think it 'your' or 'ur' in short form. WTH!!!!!!!

Sorry. just a sudden frustration triggered by someone's status update in Facebook amidst the agony of trying-very-hard-to-mug-but-just-can't-find-the-mood-and-time-is-running-out.

'Thank u :) haha is the photographer good haha' -___-

About 9 days to exams and i have never felt as unprepared for exams as this other than my ill-fated 3rd grade violin exams yearrrssss back.

Well, TONES of things happened over this period of time. Its strange how a blog is to record events and thoughts in my life but it is exactly when they happen, i have no time to blog!

Let's jot down the events roughly"
1. Family found out
2. Yann's Wedding preparation
3. Yann's Wedding
4. Jadon's 1st bday
5. /<<'s birthday
6. Sis is preggie again with a son!
7. Exams
8. New Lens

oh and err Lifesaving.

I'm so going to change my range of facial care products after the current ones are used up. Kiehl's, gimme a miracle pls. Or at least be worth my money... Arigato.

Bleah

2008-08-27T00:19:00.002+08:00

Even with the silicon casing on my Froth (read: iPhone white), the back casing has a couple of scratches already. bleah. i wish it was still the original iPhone's metal casing. Bought a new suede pouch tho. pretty nice. Wish i could just use the pouch without the silicon casing coz it'd be so much more sleek.

Reading OT project brief now.. Its this wordy 12-page case study. Jitao boring. BLEAH

Frothy Cloud 9

2008-08-26T00:25:00.001+08:00

Waiting for bus 78 at uber ulu Penjuru Lane. Came to meet a potential freelance design client. If this goes thru, it can adequately make up for the money invested into this super chic gadget I'm holding onto now - the Apple iPhone 3G.

Earlier in August, I found some bits of patriotism in me when I hung out a Singapore flag at my flat's window. Den, I was so glued to the tv in the SIM canteen, rooting for the Singapore women's table tennis team to get into the finals. I never expected myself to be so excited about the team Singapore's outing at the olympics.

Then, although unwillingly, I'm now a singtel mobile subscriber just to own one of these sexy thangs.

22 august, I went to the singtel comcenter branch for the '3-5pm appointment' I had made online. I had to queue like 2.5 hours, during which I was studying for my leadership and management test, before given a queue number.

Chose the white model after seeing the black being used as the sample testing phones, and while waiting for my queue number to be called, I observed almost everyone was getting the black one. The preference for the black model was so prominent that I was surprised to be presented a white box. Didn't realize the white one comes in a white box u see. It put me on Cloud 9 hence it's now called trv's froth.

The iPhone experience this far is marred by 3 dead pixels on the 1st set which was replaced with the current one.

There seems to be a lack of settings control for iPod on it tho. And I'm still exploring ways to customized my own ringtones and messafe alert tones which is really the suckier than having to practice my texting skills. Otherwise, I'm more or less set on sticking to this, hopefully the texting speed will improve. The typing if this entry isn't too bad. Basically, the trick is to not be too conscious of war you're actually 'pressing' as the software is pretty much effectively intuitive.

On 23 august, Yann invited me for her wedding dinner food testing. It was a buffet with an okay spread although it was lacking in variety for main courses. The theme for the buffet that night was seafood, which prob explains the limited main courses. Oh The Dinner is going to be held at Rasa Sentosa and will be an outdoor affair close to the sea. Lots of work to be done tho. I've been positioned as the chief wedding biatch. Stressed.

Meanwhile, it's going to get busy, with the endless projects, Esprimere, lifesaving club, and victoria chorale practices starting this coming Saturday. Hope the freelance projects come early and dun catch me stuck. :)

X-Files

2008-07-26T03:29:00.002+08:00

Hrm. just got back from movie at Vivo. X-files : I Want to Believe.

Went to buy the tickets early early at 11am and the GV staff thought i wanted 12pm show. '12.30 show tonight' I said. Duh.

The title just rings a song in my head: 'I want to Break Free~! I want to Break Free~!!' Damn lame, i know, so i didn't mention it to them at all.

The evening was a sleepy follow up to a stupid afternoon spent at home, kana fly-kite at home. sigh. Then Eric called me out for dinner. Tada! a reunion after 6 months since our bangkok trip.

Erupt!

2008-07-24T17:23:00.003+08:00

yeah.. i think its the vent up erm, urge(?), burning desire (?) to blog. Wahaha..

I think i'm secretly attention-seeking. I'd love my frens to read my blog, know wat's going on in my life, yet i fear there's nothing much to blog about. That, equates a boring life.

But hey! Life's not that bad without much activities! It can be just full of deep thoughts. That creeps into me sometimes, usually when i'm down and sad and depressed. So let's hope that's not gonna come, ever!

For now, erm, i'm finally going to be joining Esprimere, the SIM singing club. Opps. Those guys who remember me in SIM dragonboat might just laugh their heads off. But singing is still my preferred activity bah. Bo bian. Besides, the supposed-vocal lessons are so cheap! $20 for 8 bloody lessons.. just try lo. After all the now-famous Huang Jinglun was from this club!

Hrm and, if nothing goes wrong, i should be returning to Victoria Chorale to sing again..for an attractive, not-to-be-missed project - the Korea Performance Tour! Oh well, this episode had a bad bad start. Let's hope it turns for the better.

Then, for now, /<< is in the office. hope later can meet him but gotta change into clean clothes and hope not to stink, coz i'm going for RT NOWWWW~~ just next door in Maju Camp. BLEAH. >

Whee~!!

2008-07-24T13:54:00.002+08:00

OKAY...this is really weird. I've stumbled upon my old old blog of mine (this one la!) 2 bloody years later. Thanks to Miss Dot Ong who erm, (i dunno why) googled herself and found photos of me instead. And here i am, blogging again. I guess its easier to carry on with an old blog than to start a new one all over again.

And, 2 years on, my 'poor cody' is gone (almost) from my life and i am now sitting in the library of SIM as a student of RMIT. Wat a change! Still a Prudential Financial Consultant (Adviser back then), and a freelance graphics designer.

Just recovering from a bad bout of flu, i have 'Investment' class now and have stupid RT later on. Dunno how to survive. haha.

And, in our 5th month now (altho we dun celebrate monthly like i used to with the 1985s), there's the new ONE in my life. ;) Alas, we have to keep this a top secret, really. So, with the resurrection of this blog, i give the new ONE a code name - /<< TADA~!!

Off to class now!! =]

Damn

2006-08-16T10:33:00.000+08:00

Reading Yann's post on Pulau Ubin, this and that just made me feel sianz lo. ha. i'm so negative right.

I mentioned before, with my job, there's no weekends for me. I can't even like, you know, after work, go have dinner with my love or family. Leisure time for the others is my work time.

But then again, haven't been smooth in going for appointments anyway. Supposed to meet this girl at 11am later, called her to confirm and smsed too..no reply. Look! There goes another aeroplane!

Waited for Dot last night to counter-sign the proposal form till 1.40am..ha..stupid of me man. Met her soooo many times for her case but just die die forget to let her sign proposal. I pity myself but i know its not right. Ha..

I was telling Belinda yesterday on our way to Tampines about my experience with my warm market, that approaching friends is difficult when you are guilty of wat you're going to get them to do. Belinda told me she feels very ostracized after becoming an adviser and she feels very pai seh to approach frens. So i told her, we should not feel pai seh to do so, coz wat we'll be planning for them is for their own good. We can plan all we want and friends may still not sign up. Then its ok, we've done our job. We'll feel bad about asking frens out coz sometimes we may think 'wat are we getting our frens into by getting them to sign up a policy?'. But its a totally wrong mindset for us advisers. Believe in the role of insurance in our frens' lives, and you'll have no problem approaching them, Belinda!

I was thinking of spending a night with Cody camping at either Changi Beach, East Coast or Pulau Ubin but realised its the 7th month(s)(got 2 months this year)..so better not..haha..Next Saturday is our 3rd monthliversary..hee! But stupidly i signed up for roadshow, so we'll postpone our so-called celebration.. =p Sorry dear!

Black Tuesday

2006-08-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

Haha! Down from the incidents yesterday, i slept at 2am and woke up at bloody 6.30am to go do loading. F**k.....Then at stupid loading i twisted my ankle a bit and it didn't feel like there's anything wrong until evening when i returned to Tampines roadshow.

Decided to go get my ankle fixed with 2 whole weeks of roadshow ahead, i figured it probably would be better to fix it first..

Went to bring Dot to UOB to open CPF investment account, bumped into this Nelson guy who i met before to go meet Clear Channel ppl on the madam white snake publicity poster. So, the account opening was a breeze.

Afternoon came back home to write case then stupidly realised i forgot to let Dot sign proposal form..and so, i'm still waiting for her to call me up so i can go to Jeremiah's place to find her to sign...bleah......damn stupid..

Starting to think if all these stupid bad luck things are due to my change in hair colour...haha....

bleah.................

At Tampines, Liyann suddenly appeared and it was really a great pleasant surprise...strangely, she told me Terrence told her about my unfortunate situations at work..Strange coz dun understand how he found my blog. ha. Anywayz, really glad that my friends, my true friends still care.....touch-ded.. =]

Disclaimer

2006-08-15T00:46:00.000+08:00

Most of the photos i put here are taken by Jimmy or sometimes Yann. WAha. Thanks jimmy! just a while ago i was blogging about Sad, Disappointed and Disillusioned and then here i am laughing liao..Thank you for the nice photos that cheered me up! =]

Xinhong & Yokie

2006-08-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

Xinhong & Yokie
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

Singing the national anthem

2006-08-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

Singing the national anthem
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

Yokie & Emma

2006-08-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

Yokie & Emma
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

Me carrying our choir's signboard.

2006-08-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

Yokie carrying our choir's signboard.
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

Yann Me & Emma in Shanghai

2006-08-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

Yann Yokie & Emma in Shanghai
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

Emma and I

2006-08-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

Yokie and Emma
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

My mouth

2006-08-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

Yokie's mouth
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

The choir

2006-08-15T00:23:00.000+08:00

The choir
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

Jump again

2006-08-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

Jump again
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

Jump jump jump

2006-08-15T00:20:00.000+08:00

Jump jump jump
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

Olie Yann and Yokie

2006-08-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

Olie Yann and Yokie
Originally uploaded by macbiff.

I look good! waha...hai...i want a DSLR... =\ - photo courtesy of Jimmy Liew

Disappointed, Sad and Disillusioned

2006-08-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

Wat a f**ked up day..night or rather.

I know this might get to her somehow but i think its no harm ba..It is no doubt disappointing, when after all the meetings with Tithima, she ended up buying a policy from someone else. I totally understand her mum's anxiety to get her and her brother covered..and i dun blame her..just sianz lo..If u read this Dee, sorry i dun mean to imply anything...it can be any of my other frens..

Then the worse thing came. Its not too convenient to type the details here but basically, Lizhen promised to meet up and work out some details on how she can get a plan from me instead since she was looking for a plan. And after that i tried to call her to no avail and i know i had lost the case since i was going to China for 2 weeks.

1 week after i returned, she finally answered my call and guess what? She said she ignored my calls coz i was too desperate and felt that the things i proposed felt wrong. I was like, 'WTF?!' You needed a plan, i needed production, you promised to meet up, you didn't keep to that. She simply deprived me of a chance to talk and explain how things worked and who is she to judge me like that. 'Maybe no one told u this before but i think with your attitude, all of your frens are not going to pick up your calls.'

SMS: 'Hope your frens around you know wat you need and buy from you. Think of wat your heart wants before you do. God Bless.'

God bless you indeed. Hope your family are well covered with the minimal amount of coverage a savings plan can get you.

To all my frens out there, if you really think you dun need insurance, let me know directly and i'll leave you alone. Dun have to try to entertain me and then start judging me behind my back. Or if u do want to judge, do it straightforward like Lizhen so i can see your true colours.

Its funny how ppl are accepting of agents who they dun know to be pushy but once their own agent frens only ask them about insurance and ask to meet up, they find u super-duper pushy. Are ppl more forgiving of strangers? Ppl dunno the fears and uncertainty they face if they are met with a crisis. Ppl who fear meeting insurance agents will meet their doom when the real fear comes. Ppl who can't commit to a policy to protect their families are cowards and selfish, only wanting to spend all they have on themselves.

Maybe as a relieve to my frens out there, i'll be tapping on my frens lesser now. Its better to give advice to strangers on the streets than to try to be nice and get ppl you know covered.

Wat a life!

2006-08-11T11:32:00.000+08:00

This year, i've been to Perhentian, Phuket, Batam and China already...Bangkok coming up soon!

Bangkok will be my first incentive trip from Prudential!

World Choir Games was great and just so magical coz Victoria Chorale won the highly competitive category of Sacred Music Acapella, beating the European choirs and a few others to be the category Champion!

Oh, oh, and its this competition that i had my virginal solo part in a choir performance..heee....altho it was just a mindless scream. Well, my voice is not good enough for a singing part but at least it can pass off as a girl's scream. i'm happy! =]

My poor Cody had been waiting for my return even before i left for Xiamen..he sobbed like a little baby..damn cute...brings a smile to my face whenever i think of it and just want to sayang him la!

Oh, then there was these surreal moments with Ziyang around! Long time no see and there he just appeared, running across the convention centre looking for Victoria Chorale. He still has that signature smile and bear bear look.

Liyann, Jimmy, Emma, Sandy, Kenny and i extend our trip to go climb Huangshan, which was really quite worth the climb altho our luggages made it really tough. Hail Jimmy who carried a big heavy backpack consisting of his belongings and errr mostof Liyann's stuff.

Sandy couldn't adjust to the 'thin' air on top after arriving at merely half the altitude, maybe the air was really thin or it could be her *ahem* assets put on weight at higher altitudes.. And 780RMB was all she needed to have a smooth ride up..ok not exactly smooth but she took minimal steps.

Sunrise at hunagshan and oh, coz i wasn't prepared for this part, i took too many tops and only 1 boxers, i had to keep washing my underwear. I had no toiletries, and had to cut up 2 of my tee shirts coz it was just too hot in China.

Blah blah blah..we went to Hangzhou which was way hotter than Huangshan and much more humid too..Jasonwood is probably the only thing i miss about Hangzhou. Xihu was like...err..ok, this is here and that is there, ok! we're done touring Xihu. The Dong Po Rou (some fatty braised pork) was great. And we had giggly masseuse too..supposedly Liyann they all say my initial massuese found me too handsome or sexy in my cut-up singlet.waha.

Coz i was really anxious to catch Ziyang in Shanghai before he flew back to Toronto, Liyann they all had to accomodate to me and leave Hangzhou earlier. Then i ganjiong spider made everyone quite pissed off at the rush. Got to see Ziyang again, he gave me some Panadols that i couldn't bear to eat, and a letter. Very touched, cried a bit reading it..hope we'll see each other again soon..

Shanghai was like a movie. I mean, ya, just like the movie lo. Night scene was great.Had a great variety of shopping. Many cute guys (Sandy: the one at Quan Ju De!) Oh great service apartment booked by Miss Liyann. ok...hmm..anything else bout Shanghai? I love the Green Massage which was very spa-like and i love the robes we had to change into. And hee the massuese was kinda cute. I think my massage there was great but apparently the rest thought it was ok only. Can't beat the blind men in Xiamen la of course, esp given their rates, its totally value for money!!

And anyway, thanks to Ziyang that i'm here updating this long overdue blog. ha.

HEE.JPG

2006-08-11T11:25:00.000+08:00

DSC00459.JPG
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Finally, after like 3 years, i got to go on a romantic overseas trip..with alex, it felt quite one sided althought i enjoyed myself being with him back then too......I'm just hoping this one will last for the longest time...

Still a bit like overwhelmed by his love..not that used to be loved more than i love..hee...but its a great feeling definitely...

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and then we had nothing much else to do, so decided to spend some money to go for the James Bond Island kayaking tour..and it turned out to be not bad..the Ferry ride was very enjoyable..with on board lunch and stuff...

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before i know it, i went on a trip to a beachy place again..no sad stories this time. Prob like Sandy said, '3rd time lucky'!

This was in may...it was great fun and i really experienced the great cheap Thai massage..haha....Phuket reminded me of Hawaii....

The snorkelling had just a tad more things to see than Perhentian, and less small invisible jelly fish. But Phuket is where u can see the real, full, and most of the time huge jellyfish. I totally freaked out almost swimming into one of those..

Perhentian..I don't wanna say goodbye...

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Can't even remember which month...April i think...Alex and i went to Perhentian for sorta like his ORD trip...it was great fun...until the last day..when the end started.. =\ Nvm...been there, done that. As long as he's happy...

But i'll never forget our last moments...look at each and just teared..I dun even really know why he wants to end it. I could feel it from him. I dunno wat made him stop this all. I remember how i just cried at Funan Ya Kun toast before Liyann and i went to Esplanade for SOV performance. Saw the note he wrote on a tissue paper and left in my laptop......

Some more photos..

2005-11-30T23:33:00.001+08:00

Taken by Dot Ong during tutorial break again..This is the smoking corner..basically its the staircase area.. =]

Loolooloola...

2005-11-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

Yo yo....
After years of procrastinating...i've finally done wat i wanted to do when i finished my O levels..ahem..well err..1 year ago. Oh did i say years of procrastinating? waha..

Well yes, i've gotten myself piercings on my left ear. 2 piercings in fact. hee.
It was ok, 'cept that the sound was scarier that the feeling. It just felt like kinda hot after that..And i can't wait to buy new studs to replace these, well, plain silver ones!

Oh and i transferred some photos from my phone to my sis, yen's phone via infra red and to my Powerbook via Bluetooth..hee. I like my look back err..last year? When we went for Jay Chou's Incomparable concert.

And Mag and I at the Singapore Indoor Stadium..

And this photo is really funny..Taken by Dot during our break at the insurance tutorials. I was actually SLEEPING..

Well. Dot has passed her M5 and M9...While i just passed my M9..M5 on 13th Dec!!

Lasting love exists in my abandoned heart...

2005-11-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

I've always said i'll back track and write on wat has happened. Now i really realise there's no way back to anywhere.

Even if its a place, that same spot. Once u leave that spot, and return to it, its never the exact same spot again. In fact as u stare at it, it is changing.

Change is inevitable. And for 2 years 5 months, X and I had countless arguments over it. Should couples change for each other? Compromise is part and partial of life, and even more so in a relationship. When X says we should not change foe each other, i know X doesn't love me anymore, for only a person who doesn't love u would take that compromisation as a forced-change.

My buddy, Dot, checked out the girl, Y, that X likes on friendster which linked to Y's blog. On it was a message for X. "Very lasting Love is no longer there , light it up again, or else stop pumping oil into it!"

I knew she must have had been of some influence to his decision. The very night, 2 nights before departure for Bangkok they, together with other classmates supposedly, went on a fishing trip. And he told me they'll stay the night out there. My instincts told me there's something going on. That was the crucial night to our relationship other than the night of 11 June 2003.

Tried as i did to treat X like a normal fren, but i couldn't help but try pushing through his tough wall to re-enter to his circle of love. He did not budge and said i'm not ready to meet him for movies yet as i've yet to settle down, not ready to treat him as a normal fren. And he had to add in the line that Y told him she likes him but just not ready for a relationship. That fell on my ears like acid on my heart. As they were spending the week on Pulau Ubin on an art exchange camp, I let my mind went wild imagining Y to be in that circle.

Over friendster, in reply to my message, Y told me she treats X just like a brother. So i figured he must have been lying to me about it. Why? I wonder..

I asked X if enjoyed the Ubin stay and stupidly also if X had thought of me while being there. X said 'No.' 'What about when cycling?' (i taught him to cycle) 'Got la, and I really enjoy cycling without you. I enjoy the freedom riding without you. And strangely, i ride more confidently when you're not riding with me. With you around i tend to rely on you more, so no confident. I could cycle up the slopes without staggering nor crashing into trees.'

What had i done to make him rely on me? My fault? X said 'No. Its just the way you treat me. Like a parent to his child. And i dun like that.'

And today, i wondered, if i trat Dot the same way as well? Our manager, Bee Keng has requested Dot stay back to study and so i accompanied her. After dinner, carrying a bag of tidbits and chocolates, we entered the study room at about 6.15pm. Settled down and she whipped out her crunchie bar and started chewing away. I wanted to remind her to be serious and make use of the time staying back to do constructive studying but i held back, thinking she might get angry. 7pm, she exclaimed 'Oh no. 7pm already and i haven't started.' I said, 'Ay, i wanted to remind u to dun play, study, but scared u angry.' And tada - Dot:'Ayo, cannot wait a bit meh. You really very naggy leh." She said all that in a fed-up and nasty tone.

I had nothing to say. She is the 2nd person to complain my nagginess. Nothing to say. All is confirmed. I'm naggy and it grips ppl by their neck and suffocates them. Yet i dunno what i have done. As her study partner, i tot i had the responsibility to remind her to study. I tot, i assumed, i tot too much of myself. Who am i to say anything to anyone? Everyone seems to be independant and there i was, thinking they need my help, my reminding, my nagging. I led her to the insurance stint and i didn't want failure to get her, that's my objective.

I must have been too full of myself to think that ppl need my help. I dunno what to do anymore. Just stand by and watch maybe.

The cooling, chilly weather today had added to my sorrowness. After the confirmation from a 2nd nagged party, i went to the staircase and sat down. The wind was great. The song was apt. Hen Xiang Ni by Z Chen. And for the first time my tears fought thru my busy schedules to slide down my cheeks. I sat there and hugged myself in the black jacket X bought for me...

I'm not angry with Dot. I'm not. The incident confirmed the whole scenario for me. How can i fault her for it? I can only lament myself for thinking too highly of myself. Now i know..no one in this whole needs reminding. All have minds of their own. So why mind them at all?

Ditched in a messed up life

2005-11-16T01:58:00.000+08:00

I dunno what to do..I dun even have time to cry. I haven't even got a place to cry in my sleep.

My eldest sis Hui has given birth and is serving confinement period at our place, and thus anthony, my bro-in-law stays over here as well..gave him my room, and i can only sleep in the living room.

I have no time. Study my insurance and do my freelance which has been overdued. No place. I can't even cry. X would say 'see la, push urself until like that. can't u slow down?' I dunno. Is it too much for me to take? i think so. things haven't been right since the week of 23 Oct when X couldn't find his passport... I have no time to elaborate, will type on Text Edit when i'm free.

Basically, i'm single now..coz i was too much to bear.

Words are powerful i must say. Esp those from a person whom u fancy.

I dun wish to cry alone actually. But to trouble ppl to watch me cry..waste their time...But to cry alone is even sadder.

All my mandopop songs are all so apt now...They all have new meanings to me now.

I've been having nightmares about X. In fact it revolves round the fact that X has left me.

I now truly understand wat is meant by 'u can have all the riches in the world and not feel happy or fulfilled'. Spent $140 on a pair of Nike shoes that X and i had been yearning to get, and so i've got them. Spent $290 on iPod Nano..only to feel sad i have no one to share these things with anymore. One day when i wore the shoes, while waiting for the bus, i stared at the shoes..They stared back blankly at me. No meaning anymore to me the shoes has.

X liked me to wear long jeans. The line that made me burst into tears over the phone with him is 'i wore long jeans out for the past 2 day thinking i'd get to meet u. But i never got to catch a glimpse of you.'

One fine day, i'll write all these out in details. i must let it out one day. before i explode.

For one, the line in the poem i wrote for X, is no longer valid.

'Forever the ocean lives, forever they co-exist..' [we both are piscean]

Good to be FREE!

2005-10-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

HEllo everyone!! *waves in the air*
In high spirits i am..I'm officially on my 4th day of leave!

101005 was my off day and 111005 was my 1st day of leave!! WooHOO!!! *bends over and shakes ass at CMPB* But, alas, i wasn't about to enjoy my leave as Miss Chew Lini, my long-time Art Elective Programme fren from NYGH and subsequently classmate in Temasek Design School, had asked me to go to the company she works at to 'stand-in' for 2 days!

Wahaha..smooth sailing i thought. Leave haven't start, job come look for me liao.. Keep them coming!!! i hope..

Anyway, so there went my first 2 days of leave, earning about $150, and did merely like, 4 pieces of work? Lini is one lucky lass. Great company, with err great company as in her colleagues and the office is so nice!!! So, i experienced working at Holland V and as a real designer. Back during internship i was like..hmm..also graphic designer la but Pico handled Events and Promotion so it was kinda indirect.

Doing work at home yesterday, and saw David Lee Siew Bing on MSN. haha..And he asked me to update my blog so here i am!

Ok, anywayz, plans for leave:

1. 28 Oct-30Oct : Bangkok with Dot, Joanna and Xane
2. 31st Oct - 7Nov : Siem Reap, Cambodia with Yann, Yin Chuin, Nelson Chua and Xane
4. Nov: Insurance tutorials and exams
5. Dec: Stan Chart marathon: only the 10km la..

Oh have i mentioned i'm going to be an insurance agent?? DUN RUN!!! I've planned to not tap on my friends and relatives as much as possible. haha..anyway, as Karen Theseira, my TDS classmate, intro-ed, i think the prospects are quite good. I'll still enrol into La Salle, and make use of the 1st half of 2006 to try out the insurance stinct. If its good, maybe i'll do it one complete year, get the bonus and we'll see if i'll get back to studies. wahaha...i think studies can wait right. If the money is good i dun even need to study lo..haha..But with money and time, i sure can afford to go back to study in the near future. So let's just hope i'll excel during the stinct, which would bring me income for the next 6 years! So it'll be good for me if i were to go study. Study and have recurrent income coming in, wat can be cooler than that?

And i've jio-ed Dot to join me on that. Coz i think she needs a break from her designing and seriously, no company can be more exploiting than the one that she is working for.

So, hand in hand, i hope we both are heading towards an easier life. Just hope i'm not getting her into any troubles.

Oh Tekong entries huh...later la..all still in my Tekong dairy. haha..

Btw, i dun think i've mentioned this in here, Derrick Ho is so cute! wahaha...

In Song 2005

2005-08-27T08:14:00.000+08:00

Well well well, I'm back from the past.hee..
I mean, err, i dun mean. But ya la. After all these months, i'm back from Tekong (without completing my recourse) and finally getting to sing at VC concert at Esplanade, and tada! Programme sleeves and CDs are all done up!!

Did a lot of writing back on Tekong.
Shall put them in soon, after In Song. =]

Still praying that In Song 2005 will still get about 300 more sales..

Amen!

Woo hoo!!

2005-05-31T11:45:00.000+08:00

WEll things have been good! My design works are coming in and i'm handling them well..got at least 1.1k coming in by next month hopefully.

Xane and i went to Pulau Ubin for the Vesak Day long weekend. Yes, i finally have a long weekend!! But sadly i must say, that it is still punctuated by chorale practice. but nvm. After a long long queue at the ferry terminal, we finally arrived at Pulau Ubin. It was Xane's first and my second time there. WE had lunch at the malay kopitiam right beside the jetty. Nice traditional, down-to-earth mee siam and the teh was good too. The nice thing about Pulau Ubin is that its not a tourist attraction and things there aren't expensive!

We cycled around a lot and it was quite strenous in the beginning when we still had our barang barang with us. the big backpack, tent and bbq stuff. And then, Xane got pissed (wow) and complained about the heat and the heavy stuff he had to carry. I was like 'hello, i'm carrying the tent'. So i guess he really doesn't really have much patience like he always claim to possess. haha. And so, cycling to 2 beaches after, we settled down at the Mamam Beach. There wasn't much of a beach to speak of really. It is a mangrove beach and it isn't those nice clean white beach u have. Its worse than East Coast, worst than Changi Beach. But nevermind la..but it certainly felt like i'm preparing for field camp.

The tent was finally up and we cycled on on our 'bad' bicyles. Mine had a terrible narrow seat while Xane finally realises small bikes are not comfy to ride on. So we went back to 'town' to exchange. Slightly better. Actually i can't really remember wat we did other than cycling around. OH, we went back to town to get our water..and man the Coconuts there were damn nice!! Then we took photographs here and there. And had to return to our tent before the sun sets coz there are no street lamps around, and we will surely lose our way around in the dark. We tried to start a campfire and realised it really is quite difficult.haha..we ended up with a pile of wood on the sand. Luckily the bbq kit was easy to use! just burn it!! hhaha..The bbq went well..and i told myself to relax and dun flare up at anything, just reminded Xane to help me keep watch on the food! We had satay, chicken wings, beef steak and taiwan sausages. It got really dark 'cept for the full moon light that night.

After eating, we decided to bathe. We walked past the shelter and it had no lights. We reached the public toilet, and tada! it had no lights either! So i went back to get our lamps. Brave Xane proposed to go in and get a decent shower. Ok. There was no showers in the toilet so we just bathed ourselves at the tap. haha. it was pretty creepy man. Oh at least the toilets had toilet paper.

The night was dead with still air and lotsa insects jumping around. We couldn' really sleep and decided the next time go camping die die must bring a portable fan along.

The next day we had lontong for breakfast at the same kopitiam. Then we set off to search for Chek Jawa. Although it was said that we can only visit it via guided tours, we decided to go take a look. I chose a shorter route as interpreted from the map but didn't realise it was a tougher one with lotsa steep slopes and Xane had a fall there with pretty bad wounds on his palm. Xane started to turn pale and had a minor asthma attack. Xane was a bit scared to see blood i guess and told Xane not to panic and rest for a while.. Funnily, Xane was very embarassed when other cyclists went past. haha..We went on, pushing our bikes for quite a bit and finally reached Chek Jawa. It was high tide so couldn't see anything but it was really quite nice. Den we packed up, returned the bike and had lunch at Changi V before heading home.

Smart-ass me arranged to have a dental appointment with Elizabeth on the 29th August. haha..In Song is on 28th August. hee..hope i dun have to book in on the 28th night..so i can sing the full concert.

I spent $140 on Xane's present for next month. Only to realise there are nicer stuff on yahoo! auctions. I might buy those for Xane instead. We'll see..no $$ le la!!!!!!

Hui is expecting a girl, as told by the gynae. but apparently she still hopes for it to be a boy and is offensive when we call her baby our niece.

Now i just need my pay to start coming in!! Oh and congrats to Dot for finding a new job! come to think of it, its her first day of work tomro!! All the Best,Dot!!

Long tum no see! Toto craze!

2005-05-11T18:29:00.000+08:00

Yo yo! wat's up yo!

Its been a long time man..

Let's see...

My TiBook is broken when i still have a couple 'o freelance projects going on. And i was contemplating on getting a Mac Mini! About $1300 like that..and i tot my TiBook can fetch about $500? But now i dun think so la...its in pretty bad shape. It was going to cost me $905 to get the LCD replaced. So i thought it wasn't wise. That's like 80% of a Mac Mini. Plus a few hundred bucks, i'd be able to get a meaner, faster, cooler machine!

Uncle Jimmy kindly offered to bring my TiBook to his fren to see if the LCD is really beyond repair..and well..it is beyond repair. Then the very very nice Uncle Jimmy even helped me to bring it to SGL at Sim Lim to check again if they can repair it at a cheaper price. All these on top of his extreme kindness to lend me his Powerbook. Althought it is really quite slow in processing, i'm truly very grateful to his PowerBook! It helped me tide over some of the more impt projects like the stupid 'Creative Business Cards' and also Tempest Music and TDA booklet! Ya actually these are all the projects i have on hand now..left with Tempest and TDA..Just awaiting approval from the clients while i await my payment. Think these 2 projects can earn me a 1.4Ghz Mac Mini le...Hope the TDA one can fetch me a higher price..

Eddie met up with me to see the draft prints of the TDA booklet. And he told me he had another idea/concept in mind..And showed me 2 annual reports. 'Duh,' I tot. Annual Report and Corporate Profile are not very similar. And the kinda write-up he gave me was really so strict and straighforward and ultimately dry. The approach is just not right. It was more like trying to hard sell their products. So, the whole concept that i spent the week doing and stayed up on friday night till 5.30am to do was scrapped. Nvm. At least i think the Tempest Music project was getting somewhere..and i love the new Tempest logo i came up with..Hope Miss Lim will finally approve it.

Oh..actually, there was another bigger thing that happened the past week. Oh now i recall..it was basically a damn f**ked up week full of bad things. Xane initiated a break up on the night of my audition. lala..fine...cried and got damn upset in camp doing duty the next day after staying out with Dot at the seesha place till 3am. I even wanted to buy the iPod Shuffle for Xane..dunno for wat but i guess it was like a farewell gift. I realised how much more i should have treasured him. But then again, like Dot suggested, it might have been a good thing...shan't elaborate..But Sunday night he called me and apologised, citing that he said the wrong things again.. Ok.

The next day, 2nd May (Monday), Joanna, Xane, Dot and me went to JB for a day trip! ABC's first overseas trip!!! Lucky i had received my new passport last minute on sat..and the paranoid Dot finally realised JB isn't that scary as she imagined!! We had tim sum and shopped at Shitty Square and then went to Holiday Plaza. We finished off with dinner at Taman Daima! Sambal soton, Stingray, Cereal Prawns, Tapioca Leaves, Dua Tao...woo..must go with yann they all one day!! And the dinner costs us RM76 only! Dot and Jo got hair extensions, bought clothes... Xane spent the most la..as usual...I err...bought 2 novelty things only.

All these happened and then my TiBook died! arghh..

Anyway, Mother's Day was a simple fare celebrated at my brother's place with homecooked dinner as my mummy was on a vegetarian diet that day. I was, however, too vexed up with all the stupid problems i was facing to really enjoy the night. I didn't even buy anything for mummy! Coz i was like..arghh..will be getting money from her to buy Mac Mini..den i spend money buying prezzie for her? a bit the sala...

I borrowed Xane's PowerMac in the end. Coz, sorry Jimmy, the Powerbook really wasn't very constructive. Now that i'm using the PowerMac, i think having a desktop really isn't such a bad thing contrary to wat i agreed with Yin Chuin. He was saying i should just spend the money and fix it coz since i'm not able to afford a new AlBook, getting a desktop will be a total change in how, where and when i work. True la..but now i think there is a certain form of security when u actually work on a desktop. Dunno if Mac Mini will give me that sense. Watever it is, anywayz, i've decided that the TiBook shall be transformed into a 'desktop' and i'll just hold on till i finished my BMT recourse Oct or so. Hopefully the Mac Mini would have gottena speed boost and make my money more worthwhile!!

Monday duty and i was having a flu..ended up not doing any work in camp at all. I prayed to God that i'm risking it to take a good rest and will do the TDA booklet 'revamp' the next day, and pls see me thru it smoothly. And it did! Eddie thinks the new design is solid, just need to revamp the cover which i did not touch at all coz i dun remember him saying the cover needs to redo. nvm..i'll do it tonight!! I really hope this booklet can fetch about $800..I stupidly quoted him $450..But i already told him during the meet-up that if redesign i need to raise the costs!!

Hai..so desperate i was and i actually went to tabulate the TOTO results for the past few weeks and analyzed and placed a bet.. I bought 04. 27. 44...and another set of 04. 27. 04 and 44 came out. Argh..I'm set on betting on another set of 3 tmr, after some 'analysis' again of course.. heee...

Scarily, Mervyn (my colleague) told me that i've been grinding my teeth in my sleep! no wonder i've been feeling aches in my jaws. And also, both my best friends, Dot and Yann has lost their jobs! So sad..hope they'll get a super duper satisfying, both mentally and financially, jobs soons!!

After prac on 7 May, we went to Chloe's beautiful bungalow in changi. I 'jitao' stunned..and went into a sad mood..coz i kept wondering when i'll ever be able to have such luxury. It seemed to surreal being in Chloe's place..it didn't feel like i'm in singapore! Sad..Her dad is a pilot. Hai. But the location was bad man..as in for me..can't imagine how mummy would feel if she had to live just opposite the Changi Prison. No no..

In coma.

2005-04-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

My PowerBook LCD finally went into coma..Was told in MUGS forum that the backlight of my LCD is dead. I can still see faint image of the login window. So i would not really say its dead..just in coma.

Stupid Life! Horoscope told me i have a lot to show off this week for my wonderful week...What shit wonderful week has it been so far man?

I am called up for BMT recourse in July, and now my TiBook is in coma with 3 ongoing freelance jobs. Wat great timing!!!

And i'll have to burn a hole in my bank account to see the Specialist tomorrow and repair my laptop. Oh BTW, I've decided to go for the July recourse. Bia the 3 months and pass out to clear leave in one shot. The other choice was, to downgrade now and clear some leave (about 10 days), and go for modified BMT in Oct, finish in Nov and clear the rest of the leave. I think the latter is quite a screwed up choice.

Firstly, Dot, Joanna, Jane + me have arranged to go Bangkok at the end of Oct..And there's no better timing than that 29th Oct - 1st Nov!! Coz Joanna's school reopens in November. That's the problem..

So guys, I'll probably miss In Song once again. But i'll go for practices still...in hope to get to book in late on 28th August after the concert! If only it were a Sat. But if i were to be in field camp or wat then too bad la..hai...Basses will still sound as good i'm sure! Maybe even better! hah..

How i wish i were in coma and wake up on my ORD day....

Tekong!

2005-04-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, Tham told me a piece of news i'd never want to hear! Both Andy and I are scheduled for BMT recourse in mid-July!!! That came too soon for me coz i haven't been able to build up my medical history on my back pain..I really have back pain!!

Called up Xane's 'back specialist', watever the specific name is called,,and arranged an appointment on thu.
Den i kept thinking..why am i avoiding the recourse? Choralee concert is in August!!! But then i tot..why not make use of the chance to get fit before i ORD? should i? i dunno!!! Afterall..i think Chorale has more than enough guys for the concert..so missing the concert won't pose much of a harm to chorale actually...So why not just go for it, pass out in sept and start clearing leave?!

So should i go for the appointment with the specialist?

I've asked..If i get downgraded (again) to Pes C, i can skip the July recourse, but they'll schedule me for modified BMT in Oct no matter wat..Then i won't be able to clear leave!! Unless...i try to siam the modified BMT too...arghh...

So..actually i feel likej going ahead with the July recourse, and risk missing In Song @ Esplanade e again....with my programme book design representing me at Esplanade...HAI!!!!!! i'm really at a lost...

Anyway..its been a long while since i blogged ya? Its because it was my long weekend in 3 bloody weeks!!! Fri, went Changi Village and Changi Beach...and saturday went to pig out after chorale. Man , i hadn't pigged like i did for a long time!!! And i had a nightmatre after that...dreamt that the audition went awfully wrong and witnessing a tsunami caused by a secret government experiment gone wrong!!! Ok, i suppose the audtion part was well, coz of the audition and the tsunami was coz of Changi beach!!..Government part i guess is the Integral Resort thingy..hahaha......

I'll go dream about tekong now...

Phew.

2005-04-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

Nice day nice day..Although i had to orientate my new colleague in driving tthe mini-bus..i got to leave at 11aam still..haha..

Rushed home and had to buy lunch for my bro again (there goes my $3, i'm getting very stingy)..and ate the noodles while editing the stupidest looking cards i've ever seen.

The rush job Eddie had gotten me to do was to edit thelogos of the 'creative' cards. There was this card with an illustration showing a man on a coconut tree looking out, with the words 'i was seaching and seaching..' written on the beach sand. So i was to add in the 'Rs' for the words..and edit various other grammar mistakes.

After rushing to Kovan and pass him the CD and quoted him an $80 fee for the editing, i had wanted to take bus to bedok reservoir road area...i thought can mah...remember driving along there during driver's course..but i walked and walked...quite damn long la...finally found a bus stop with buses that goes to Tampines..phew..

The trip to Tampines was pretty fun actually. Didn't realise Tampines Road was so long and deserted..Quite an experience..Got to Xane's place and i used the gym for almost an hour before going to suntan a bit in the nice, warm evening sun at 4.45pm! Then also used the sauna..wah...damn shiok!

Oh and yesterday i received my 'order' of the Nobody Knows soundtracks and dvds! But err..i'm in debt to Gilbert now..SGD$140! Didn't really expect it to amount to such a considerable sum..hai..my PowerPac fan haven't buy ah!!! Back to Nobody Knows, the soundtrack is sooo bloody relaxing siah..simple and beautiful...phew..And i went thru the Making of nobody Knows..Akira is just so cute and dashing!

Came home at 9plus..and was 'looking for' the Ge Qian notes on the piano..and found them...and that stupid note that i can't reach is a high 'c'! arghh....started practicing the running notes..and not long after my aunt came...i thought she was bringing Maggie home...only to realise she is to stay over at my place for 10 days...coz her place under renovation...ay...can't practice liao..

Ok..i'm very busy these few days....got Tempest music and the TA booklets to design..argh...give me more time!

Andy, my fellow driver told me he needs to change some of our duties...asked him why then he sheepishly told me he is participating the the Channel U SuperStar singing competition...ay...so envious....of his courage that is...He is one guy who i wish to be..in the sense he can really be very bochup about things. He banged the mini-bus also like nothing happened like that...still can laugh...bloody hell...For me..that time i knocked over the metal pole i behaved as if the world is ending. Ay...i shall just concentrate on my Hark! affair....

Oh, i shall be political and comment on the IR..wat Integral Resort huh....haha...i think its damn bloody cool!!! Imagine having the big big Marina reservoir and huge huge resorts!! Two somemore...Singapore will really be spruced (is there such a word?) up!! I'm all excited about it...as long as i know i must not be addicted to gambling i think its fine with me! i guess a smart person would just go for the benefits of the IR and keep himself save from the negative effects..hee....maybe i'm not smart..maybe i am...no i guess i'm not..haha...But then again, by the time the 2 IRs are up i also dunno how old already...haha...

Off Day!

2005-04-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

After the dramatic night yesterday, today's off day seemed especially refreshing.

We broke up barely 2mins and patched back. Ha!

Ok anyway, went K-lunch with Dot today and it only cost $6+ per pax..power.
Den We drowsily went to PS..we were really tired...dunno why..

Den met Joanna Peng aka Xiaoli who just finished her exams..And we were talking about Sunday Times' article about Gen Y having weird, special names. There was this Otard guy...who was named after his father's favourite XO so Dot was like 'Wah lau..so sad..imagine being named after your dad's favourite drink' And we realised Joanna was damn fortunate not to have such an insane father for she could have been name Teh, Teh Peng..

Den we went 'shee shell shee shell on shee shore' at Prinsep again. And we agreed to visit Batam on 2 May 2005! Eddie smsed me and said want to meet and pass me some rush photoshop jobs. So ok..haha..money's rolling in again. But i haven't even started conceptualising Zhihong's Tempest Music! wah busy week..and now i'm actually clearing my hardisk so i can have space to work on the files in camp tmr..haha...my poor overloaded PBook G4 667!

Den on the way back home from Kovan, popped into 7-eleven to buy Banana Walnut Bread which might very well become my 3 meals of the day tmr and flipped thru 8 days..haha...i've stopped buying 8 days...i'm getting more and more stingy! And on my way back, saw this beautiful cat lying on the pavement and i tried to stir it by imitating a cat's meows but no response. Then i realised it a bit strange for it to sleep right beside the busy Serangoon Road. Looked closer and it had a pool of blood under it mouth..hai..must have been run over by vehicles. I regret not having the courage to carry it and place it under the nearby bushes. I prayed for it and left. Wat a way to end my outing.

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2005-04-17T01:54:00.000+08:00

I dun understand.

Do i really sound bad? Why is Xane not supportive of me going for it? All of a sudden it became a lame thing. I'm just imitating the singers whose songs i sing. I have no originality. What the f**k? So why was he like so happy for Dot who has passed it? So he was just putting on an act? What did he mean by i sing with more passion when singing in chorale? its all singing. music has no boundaries. I know he doesn't appreciate or even dun like Chinese music but the has no right to say that its lame what.

I understand there are non-pop songs and why ppl say those songs by Coldplay, Maroon5 , etc are good compositions and i agree they are great songs too. But that doesn't mean pop songs are crap either! Jay Chou's songs are definitely great, and there are songs written with feelings and passion too. Singers who don't write their own songs doesn't mean they are bad singers. Songs not written by the singers doesn't mean they are bad songs. There are just ppl who can write music but can't sing, and can sing but can't write. There are pop songs with really sensitive,expressive and abstract lyrics. that i really appreciate. He said i should write my own songs, pls, i would have done so i had known how to. he said i should go for singing classses, pls, if i had $$, i would have taken up the classes long time when Dot started hers.

It was just so bloody insulting to comment that what i'm going to do or that my dream and passion is lame. You can dun support me, but u have no rite to insult wat i do. I dunno how to appreciate DJing, the mixing and scratching but i've never pass it off as lame and stupid. I even told him where he can sign up for courses on it. How can he actually say such a discouraging thing to me? It wasn't an advice, it was an opinion, a very negative and bluntly presented one, to the extend of rudeness.

I won't give up. With his words, all the more i want to go and try. I may not succeed, but i'll try.

So hurt, so insulted, so degraded.

Practice

2005-04-15T21:03:00.000+08:00

Trapped again today, in camp i mean. And the control is so bloodily becoming a public entertainment room where the RPs come in and watch TV. I just refuse to stay there. It feels so...soo..err..intruded? k my english is bad. Borrowed Goh's Zen micro to listen to my beloved Jay Chou's ge qian. Oh my earphones are spoilt and into the rubbish chute they went and i'm too broke to buy new ones.

So, actually i'm up in the office practicing Ge Qian to myself. Singing the song in lalala's makes me realise wat are the notes i really can't hit and wat i actually can hit.

Anyway, was smsing chat with Gilbert and the topic went to me eye rings again..hhmm why huh..dunno..and told him i bought Garnier Eye Contour Firming Cream and Garnier Eye Contour Lightening Cream out of desperation after being commented to look older than a 26yo. Come to think of it i haven't applied it yet..Dun even dare to take them out in front of those oh-so-chauvinist RPs.

Ordered 3 boxes of Chun Chun Hoarse Voice Tea from Sandy..hope they'll help me prepare for it..

Today, after the rain in the afternoon, smart aleck me went to open the windows of 45630 such that the heat won't be trapped in it and roast me when i drive. In the secluded control, i din even hear the rain that came back. By the time i ran out to close the windows the seats were already wet! And worse thing was that when NRC Susan boarded 45630 i forgot to tell her the seats were wet and she didn't realise it either until we reached MMI and my God..Not only were her pretty pink Bossini 3/4 jeans wet, they were stained by the dirty 10-year-old seat of 45630! 2 or 3 streaks of yellowish brown stains that resembled 'shit stains', as wat Dot and me always referred to, were right across her butts! I felt so guilty!!! And to my surprise, Susan did not turn to a black face and get angry! just a bit of whining that's all. She has really good temper i must say. I treated her to kopi and kaya toast la...hope her appointment tonight wasn't spoilt by the 'shit-stains'. tsk tsk..

Oh shit..9pm show finale today..i go watch now!

Sing!

2005-04-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Finally got to go sing KTV with Dot who just quit her job. Hmm..screamed thru the Jay Chou..but i find them most enjoyable. Jay is really such a genius..hai.. Dot got thru her auditions and sometime soon we'll be able to listen to her sing at the cafe! Hehe...but i still dunno wat songs to choose siah..actually..not much confidence left to go for it already..so many notes can't hit..sing shit siah..haha...watever..hai..

Sadly Dot's friend tot i'm over 24 years old. Dylan and Gilbert just said i look older than Gilbert who is like 26 yo siah. My God..hai...

Lalalala...

Time

2005-04-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm..I think i'm kinda losing track of time on my blog.

Been busy for the past few days that i had no time to come and type.

Let's see wat has happened.

Hmm..wait. when was the last time i blogged. Oh April 5th. Talking about 5th, i just saw this form lying around in my office with the title, "Application for LOA Test and the 2th Attempt". Bwahahaha. Couldn't stop laughing. Also, all these while my MT-line's vehicle/transport indent form was titled, "Requestion for Vehicle/Transport.." Haha..
Most of the staff in my organisation has bad command of English. Not that mine is great la..but 2th...hahahah...

Anyway, just realised why Xane's English is weak, coz his friends all can't be bothered about using good english. Went to his school to meet up yesterday (April 12)and saw a note from his classmate on his desk, "Hey, I've left the barket under your desk. Thanks!'

Back to the happenings..Last week, my mum whispered to me at home that my eldest sis might be pregnant! And told me to be discreet about it until the foetus has stabilised. I thought, "err..so she IS pregnant right?" hahaha...yeah..and as if my dad who was around didn't know about it such that my mum had to whisper. heh.. Yippee..i'll be an uncle soon..hehe...yeah yeah...must learn to age graciously. Oh i just bought Garnier 'Lift' cleansing foam and Night Lifting Cream. hah..Hope Mervyn's not reading this.

Then Shirley, my sis-in-law just got promoted. Kuang and her came by for dinner and i'm really glad that they are coming back more often. I know Mummy misses them and Hui and Anthony of course..Hope they keep this up!

And so, on 10nd (tsk tsk) April, Shirley gave us a treat at Parkway Swenson's. My parents, Yan and I rushed there so that they won't release the reserved seats only to find the assistant manager to be Lizhen! hah..so i got her to hold our reservations for us so my mum can go shop a bit before Kuang and Shirley came. The apple crumble was simply delicious! Hot crumble with the butter scotch syrup..woo..so nice that i brought Xane to eat just 2 days later!

12 April was 'the' day and met Xane for dinner..after moving several metal cabinets and their contents over to store the whole afternoon..I was really quite shagged. But the night went well la..quite relaxed. No quarrels..haha..

Oh I bought Li Sheng Jie's album to practice for the auditions..hee...hope its worth the investment and my long weekend..arghh...Dot has asked me to register for her sch's public audition for vocalist...decided to give it a shot...must practice hard! So i've been trying to practice and clear my throat. hee..

Oh today duty met this DP who name is Elisha..wow..cheem name..from the first look i knew he is different..after much probing he finally told me he had just returned from his studies in Canada. That 'ang moh' look and his accent finally gave him away. Hai...wat a lucky guy..right after O levels went to Canada already...rich rich...quite a goodlooking chap btw.

One major thing for the past week was that i outed myself accidentally..hai..so silly...but just as well.

Gilbert is quite nice la. at least not bitchy. And he is helping me to get Japanese version of Nobody Knows DVD and soundtrack! Also getting this 'making of Nobody Knows' documenting the filming right from the auditions of 'Akira' and its all about him!! hee..
Asked him to help me get these 3 first. Then next month he'll get the Spirited Away DVD too. Told him to divide the 2 sets coz no money!! Also requested that he help me keep a lookout of Gomi when he goes Japan himself. And just got to know from him that Gomi means 'rubbish'. Great. Xane has been calling me that!

Took quite a lot of photos too..shall upload them when my broadband gets re-connected. -_-"
Broadband got suspended coz of some disputes between Yan's credit card and Starhub regarding the bills. Hai.

Hope I'll be back soon. Oh my 9pm drama serial.

A Rainy Day..

2005-04-05T11:58:00.000+08:00

Hehe..a Rainy morning. Came back and went online to do some research on the CD duplication services..and finish up the CD cleeve design for a quote.

That's about all..Cleaned up my PBook a bit..coz it going really slow with only 9GB left..arghh..Oh and that's why i found so many old photos...hehe..and realised Sam has been very middle-finger prone since pre-Olympic days!!

Hmm..and the whole of yesterday in camp was spent sleeping and working on the CD sleeve and experimenting with website development..oh ya..gotta go re install dreamweaver..

Oh and God bless the the late Pope's soul!

Oh ya!! And congratulations to the VICTORIA SCHOOL CHOIR for getting a Gold with Honours at the Singapore Youth Festival Choral Competitions today!! Wow..they sang Salve Regina and Pok Pok Alimpako!! sat sat eh!! GIMME A 'V'! 'I' 'C'...

Various Old Photos... =]

2005-04-04T20:28:00.001+08:00

me
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

vulgar sam
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

SWJ
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

dawn yann
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

jane
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Me in No. 4 in my container office!
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Me at MRT
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

My MT-Line!!
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Sunset at Esplanade
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

My 93 yo Ah Gong!
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Me in my car which we call 31!
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Bleah

2005-03-31T12:08:00.000+08:00

Haha, didn't post yesterday even though it was my off day. Too busy doing other stuff. Anywayz i fixed my wardrobe handles, and proceeded on with my Titanic model, and scanned in the sketches for Trevorisation logo. Shall start doing the logo tomoro when i'm off again!

Strange thing i realise is that whenever i come up to the office to use the net, i feel like i need to take a dump. I went to the toilet the day before yesterday and man it was creepy. So i shall not step into it again.

Anywayz, i dreamt that my MT-line had 5 or 6 new drivers posted to us. WOW. i was like damn happy coz i would be the most lao jiao amongst them and i had no need for any more mileage and i figured i won't need to drive again!! Then i dreamt of banging into the ass of my LTC's Nissan Sunny with my GP car. Car plate number 5456. Bought it for 4D. Shall check the results tmr. Hope there'll be good news to type tmr. hee..

Ok, tmr, i shall work on the Trevorisation logo and also do at least the measurements for the lamp shade! I'm in the midst of revamping my room btw. I've just transformed the blue doors of my wardrobe to be a sleek black and replaced the obiang handles to minimalist wooden cube knobs. pretty satisfied with the results. Cleared my bookshelf a bit. Shall empty it by this week and out it'll be from my room! Still contemplating on the new bookshelf. Dunno if i really need one. Main concern is the cost la of course. That Stolmen combination from Ikea will set me back by at least $400. Of course it'll look great..best if complete with that PowerPac standing fan. Woo..

Oh and while i was clearing my stuff yesterday, found this wooden card Yunru sent to me years back. It was a birthday card she had sent from KL, and it was my 17th birthday!! haha...she even talked about how i can go for driving tests and get into pubs legally in just one more year. And now i'm already 22. God. Also, realised JCYRHS had been giving me X'mas cards regularly over the years. He is one fren i feel i had neglected over the years. Zhiqian also..hmm i feel quite bad coz i know that there are frens out there who treasure me but i haven't been giving them much attention. Hope its not too late.. =p

Deposited some money and the balance is back to $900+! phew..let's try to keep it there, Trevor. So no PowerPac fan for ya! ha!

Stills

2005-03-30T03:57:00.000+08:00

Glass Lift at MRT station
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

MRT Glass partition
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Btw station door and train
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

MRT Window
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

In Transit
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

MRT door
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Checklist

2005-03-29T14:25:00.000+08:00

1. Create Logo for Trevorisation
2. Get screws for wardrobe handles
3. Design lamp shade
4. Design Trevorisation main page

In Camp

2005-03-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

Hey hey..wat d'ya know! its my 3rd post already! Eh..skipped the 9pm Ch 8 show for this ok..

In camp today, and took the liberty to obtain keys to my officer's office.haha..

My first time blogging in camp..cool..

Woke up damn blurred but sharply at 7am. even though strangely i set my alarm clock at 6.45..opps..PM i den realised.

Nothing much happened at work..drove and drove..clocked about 70+KM of mileage. yeah. can't wait for my next driving bonus. My account balance of 1K just disappeared..as in..its now 800+..sigh. Wanted to bank in the money that i supposedly withdrew for Liyann but the stupid machine was down.

Kept thinking of the PowerPac fan i saw at the Ikea Home Fix DIY shop..so tempting..never seen a fan as cool as that. For one, the blades are metal! But that would set me back by $75..leaving only $700 in my bank..which would be wat i had before i received my $300 cheque.. damn..i spent my pay away.

Was telling Dot about the Channel U singing competition..hehe..she say if i join she'll join..very tempted la..but still...I think she should join leh..after her voice classes i really think she can be a singer. Me..cannot make it.

Elizabeth was beautiful in her gown last night! When i saw her at the reception i was really wowed by her outfit. Anyway she's the most calm and steady bride i've ever seen. The rest were either damn nervous or didn't seem to know wat was going on. Ok at least Elizabeth looked calm.

The wedding dinner was great, 'cept for Gary's silly mention bout my Germany incident again. Am i petty? i dunno, but i was definitely not pissed, not angry.. Maybe just embarrassed really. Ya i cry when i'm drunk. Some ppl are like that wat and i'm not afraid to show or admit it. So, for the record, I, Trevor, Yokie, whichever, cried back in Germany when i was drunk and also cried when i woke up having a terrible asthma attack and Gary helped me to pack my luggage and rush for a train. Phew.

Watched SpongeBob Squarepants the movie yesterday. It was pretty funny la..but Patrick the Starfish really is quite gay. Took a few photos on the way to Sheraton. The feeling to take photos is back!

My 1st ever second Post!

2005-03-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

Wow..this is the very 1st time i ever posting a second post in my blog.

Well..spent some time to create Flickr account, cropped and resized some photos for uploading..
I figured with some photos, its more possible that i'll continue with it..

So here they go...

canon

2005-03-27T21:16:00.000+08:00

canon
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

Thru the canon at Labrador Park.

kiat

2005-03-27T21:15:00.001+08:00

kiat
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

sam2

2005-03-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

sam2
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

yann jimmy

2005-03-27T21:12:00.004+08:00

yann jimmy
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

chloe kiat

2005-03-27T21:12:00.003+08:00

chloe kiat
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

yann&trev

2005-03-27T21:12:00.002+08:00

yann&trev
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

yann&trevfailure

2005-03-27T21:12:00.001+08:00

yann&trevfailure
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

kiat chloe

2005-03-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

kiat chloe
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

trev

2005-03-27T21:11:00.002+08:00

trev
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

dawn&sam

2005-03-27T21:11:00.001+08:00

dawn&sam
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

jim&yann

2005-03-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

jim&yann
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

sam

2005-03-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

sam
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

garfield2

2005-03-27T21:01:00.000+08:00

garfield2
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

garfield

2005-03-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

garfield
Originally uploaded by Trevor Clef.

One of my many 'first' Blog entries

2005-03-27T19:41:00.000+08:00

Hi blogspot. Here i am again, the confused one, wasting your web space again by starting yet another blog. Well, this must be my 3rd or 4th blog. As usual, i wish i'll keep this one going on...

You see, this is my month of having the privilege of having 2 long weekends. And this is my 2nd long weekend, complete with a public holiday called the Good Friday. Like always, i look forward to such a weekend, hoping to have a great time and unwind myself.

Xane n me went to Labrador park after wasting the first half of the Good Friday contemplating wat to do. As we were almost done with the 'tour', he said he's having a fever. Oh my God. So off we went back to Bedok where he spent $70+ on the doctor who claims there is a public holiday charge. While he squanders away his $70, i went to NTUC to get some canned sardines and preserved veggies, topped off with a salmon fillet. Cooked porridge for him to go with sardines, eggs, salmon and veggies...I tot ok..i shall stay and while away my friday next at his place..

Dot called asked me out. Itchy itchy heart...which said 'I wanna have some fun!' After all, yann and all were at wala walas. I jio-ed Dot to go down with me but she opted out as she tot she'll be very extra. Ok fine. I hitched a ride from Jimmy anyway..yeah..no cab fare.

Wala wala was great. EIC is no doubt better than that band i heard when i went with mag, shiwei, lini and dot. 2 glasses of beer and i was almost wasted. Its been a long time since i drank anyway..

Anywya, i think i shouldn't do this. I always like to dwell on wat's passed and whenever i write a blog i'll try to include everything..

Fast forward.

Saturday-i got home and out i was in a jiffy. Wanted to get Jimmy a present, but end up collecting money for an ang pao for him. And finally, i got my hands on a copy of Coco Lee's 'Exposed' at Raffles City Sembawang where the stupid aj cashier flirted with me.

Sectionals was great fun! wat a difference when u get a good rest. I was so energetic i was blasting away..only to be scolded by mama yong..haha..

Got Jimmy a cake and i'm broke from forking out the contributions for some first..haha..nvm..next time i'll get my little fortune back and suddenly feel rich again..oh still got Elizabeth's wedding ang bao tmr..

Am i revealing too much detail in a blog? watever.

Thai Express was good as usual but i really think the red rubby at siglap is better than the esplanade and holland v ones..

And then, it was at Jimmy's place when i felt like i'm missing so much from life. Liyann's ibook was full of good stuff i never got to know.. And it was so interesting to read ppl's blogs and their lives seemed so enriching. those photo sites too...made me want to take a lot of nice photos..

Then, i realised i really have so many things i wanna achieve! Like my trevorisation website which is still in the planning stage(which might have already lasted for 1 1/2 years). I HAVE TO GET STARTED!

So here i am. hoping to have a start somewhere..hmm..yeah. i got started!